Look after yourself coz nobody else will. No matter how close you may be. Keep yourself a priority over anything else

Life

So i met some new people, they have been threw the same things as me but we dont talk about it very much, i feel like iv known these two people for years there really cool, but everytime i hang out with them, i get this really hard wave of depression, it happens every time i meet new people that i like, it hurts so much but i dont know whats hurting, why am i sad when i hanging out with my friends…it just doesnt make sense

Please don't tell me you text everyone the same way you did with me. Send selfies just like you did with me, and talk the way you did with me. I miss you, please take back things to normal

3am Thoughts

Day 220 of writing journal entries.

I had a nice day today, simple and chill. I spent time watching anime and loved it. 😎 I also went golfing with my grandpa which I hit some really good driving shots, though I didn’t do very good at putting. 😂

The only disappointing thing was when I was on my run my stomach suddenly had a sharp dull pain and I had to stop running. I was especially upset because my body and breath were insanely strong and I was on pace to crush my record by a minute, and I felt so good, but my chest randomly just started hurting, took about half an hour for it to stop… I’m fine now though.

It was still a good day though! I found out I’m goin back to school August 29th. 😁 20 more days. I can’t wait but I’m so curious as to what it’s going to be like. Hopefully I have some good teachers. I also hope everyone is doing well! Peace be with you. 😊

Personal Growth

**Do not wish your girlfriend/boyfriend can read your mind**
Tell them what you are feeling and ask them how they are feeling 

Relationships

Never felt  so  stupid!!!
I proposed  a guy I was hooking up with ! I felt  so terrible  about  myself  like  I  am  begging  him not to date a girl  he told  me he used to  like since  2 years !! He insulted  me...he told  me  who is going  to  date a girl  who  is  partially  bald, have saggy  boobs ,with stretch  marks 
all over her body... who is so dark  .....
I never felt  this humilated !!!
I feel vulnerable  It has been  a week  but It still  runs  in my mind I can't  look  myself  in  the  mirror  !!!I feel  so bad about  my body  and  the worst part is I saw him today and we greeted each  other  just like nothing  happened  !! Despite  of  things  he said  to  me  I didn't  reacted to him instead  I literally  wore a foundation  ... that awful  but I can't  help  !!! I don't  know  where am I heading  to   !!!! My bestfriend  is  preaching  me lessons  on Self  love  , self acceptance  but practicing  it practically  is very  difficult  !!!
I am so lost  !!!!! 
I feel  so  dumb  like all the boys I had relationship  with  has always  side lined  me kept me their secret  girlfriend  .....I don't  know  why  people  are  ashamed  of  me!!!!!

We are many suns before we sets and many suns before it sets as we are moons and moons after. 

Feeling lost! Don't know where to go what to do!

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