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3am Thoughts

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Sometimes I feel Am I expecting more than I deserve?? Lekin Maine ek simple sukoon wali life ke alawa kuchh expect to kiya nahi. Isse accha to badi badi expectations rakh leti, puri nhi hoti to samjh bhi ata. Yha to chhoti si wishes bhi puri nhi ho rhi. 

So mai start krne vali hu  apni medical line ki journey but maine google pe boht articles padhe and all like on a website called as quora aur waha pe sab ne mana kiya medical line mat lo better become an engineer, i regret chosing medical etc. so mujhe abhi confusion hai kyunki board ke  exams to cancel ho gye ab 11th start hoga to uske liye chose krna hai..
pasand hai bio par usme salary itni nhi milti jitna hardwork..meri sari friends to medical le rhi hai kyunki un sab ke papa doctors hai or jinke papa mummy doctor nhi hai wo engineering kr rhe hai ,commerce etc. par mere papa to doctor nhi hai..so mai kya kru..maine padha quora pe sab bol rhe the boht struggle ke bad bhi no respect and no expected salary jab 40+ ke ho jaoge tab aish milega tab tak struggle kro..matlab teenge gaya..young age gaya..old hone ke baad aaram..mai thodi pareshaan hu..thodi madad krdo plzz

Career

I thought I had time . I never expected ki uske ghr me rishte aane lagenge . My parents were also against our relationship . But I loved her so much .I thought once I get financially independent,I will take her and run away and give her the best possible life I could.But she broke up saying "saying tumne ek baar bhi nhi socha mai apne ghr me kya bol kr shaadi ke liye mana krungi,tum apne ghr me bata nhi skte,mujhe apne ghr me batane nhi de rhe".Btw she is still unmarried and  we are now talking again.  And she said "I loved you , bs tumne nhi
 kiya tha" . Abb usse koi kaise smjh aaye ki ladke bhi majbur ho jaate hai kbhi kbhi uska mtlb ye nhi ki unka pyaar jhuta ho . Wo bhi aapne dekhte hai but ghr ki responsibility upar se berojgaari toot jaata hai insaan .Usme wo kaise kisi ghr waale ko apne pyaar ke baare bataye . Iska ye mtlb nhi uska pyaar jhoota tha . Ek situation ek mistake and they assume u don't love the. . But I am happy and proud of myself I kept my promise till the last day "I will never leave this hand" .But sayad tumhaara adhura promise tha . 

I remember once he said to me mai kbhi chla jau na to mujhe yaad karke mt rona kyuki mai nhi chahta tu mere liye roe...to ye usne isliye bola tha bcoz he really cares bout me or bs nibbe wala dikhawa tha ya he wants me to cry even more after remembering this..ab to wo mere sath bhi nhi h and i m bored and mere overthinking ke bich me aagya to post krdi😂

The person once made u feel the best is now the reason u feel low.. you've trust Issues because of that person aur self respect and self esteem ki to dhajiya hi uda diya hai .. fir v u wanna stick to that person..?? Kiyun yarr?? 

Feeling so lonely
Life mein kya kar raha hu , pata bhi nhi chal raha hai
All my friends are ahead and doing something and I'm just confused
Don't have anyone to talk 
Mujhe dekh kar koi bhi soch nhi sakta hai ke yeh ladka lonely and depressed feel karta hoga , cuz i always smile , and looks happy . Never talk how I feel
Par thoda Aaj light feel ho Raha cuz thoda Aaj bol diya , kaisa lag raha tha
 Kuch dino se .

I still miss you but ab chize bht change ho gae hai ab itna affect nhii krti, memories km ho gae hai . Jo anxiety hoti thee ye sab soch ke wo km ho gae hai. Memories reduce ho rahi hai mai caahta nhii thaa bhulna tumhe but time kii wjh se sab apne aap ho raha hai. 

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