Living in hope of that one day, one day this humiliation will end and someone will know my worth and hold me for forever.

They are parents and siblings... And silent killer of me too

I tried everything, every possibility of options. But all they are saying last five years se that they wanna see me die, unki zindagi ka mja khraab ho gya because of my existence. 

Sab theek ho jayega. Sab theek ho hee jaata hai.

Emotional Abuse

I think i like him very much , i don’t know is this crush , infatuation or love , i don’t know . I just know the idea to see him excites me . To be close gives me rush and shiver . And when multiple times he ask , when i am gonna come to the city again . Maybe he wants to meet but again have never felt he is at all interested in me .


Affirmations

Need to sleep but now it's quite usual to stay awake. 

3am Thoughts

I'm bored. Anyone wanna chat?

!My teacher fat shamed me!
Okey so for context I’m a tall slim girl, 5’7, with a big bum🤭
So I’m in class and we were going to see pants and needed to take our measures. My friend to my “ass” measure, allá the way around the waist and around the biggest part of your bum and mine was valid. I wrote it down on a paper and when my teacher saw it she goes crazy. Screaming that I did it wrong it could never be that long and that we didn’t listen to her instructions etc. I was pissed like what. So we explained to her that we did it right and she was like again it’s to big bla bla, meaning that we don’t have anybody that big in our class. Like what.
And she said that it could never be right and I was getting offended because I know we did it right. The teacher takes my measurements again and it was ofc right and she was again like it must be wrong bla bla and that she had just once in her life had a student with that measurement, laughing (meaning that the student prob was huge). She was like slicing and being sarcastic saying “oh so now you’re going to be an XL haha”  then she took out the like papers to cut out your size and she took the biggest one and said inferir of the whole class that the big one should be mine. She said a lot of conserning things and many people in the class reacted to that and I was so darn close to bawling my eyes out they teared up and my friend supported me😘 
Is it just me or did the teacher do wrong?

Body image

Morning with a mug of tea & doing something which is effective for myself ❣️☘️🙏

Life

So it's even didn't been like 1 month since me and my best friend broke up and she literally found herself a new best friend and that girl who is now her current best friend was the girl who tried to break our friendship 10 months ago I'm devastated how heartless can a human can be! She was like the loyal friend that I used to own but she broke me into pieces and also within 2,3 weeks she got herself a new bestie am I this much bad that I can't even keep a loyal best friend??? Like I'm speechless our 4 years of friendship ended within seconds and that stupid heartless animal got someone new like wow this is how fair is this world here I'm crying also into depression and that animal is enjoying with her new best friend well I know her friendship will not stay very long cuz that girl who is now her best friend is a worst human that you can possibly imagine she steal her friend's boyfriends and best friends and I think she stole mine too but how can my best friend can leave me for a random person idk what to do... I just can't handle this situation anymore!

Breakup

I saw her after a long time . I went so emotional, a lot of peaceful tears came out . 
Tbh in the morning I opened my hidden album and saw her pic . I was like god please let me see her anywhere. 
It was like god heard my voice & after few hours i saw her . 
🙂

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