Life seems hard. Funny how I want to put an end to it. After all the struggles and fights I have been through and fought alone, I thought I was brave enough to always keep fighting but why do I have no energy or will anymore? My own father doesn’t trust me. He never has. He has never treated me like a daughter. Never loved me. Always fights and arguments. I hated him and I hate him but he said he hates me too. And it was loud and clear. My mom, always throws away her burdens at me when I already have enough of mine. Life is already difficult and tough, but yk having parents who hate and disgust you and making you feel like a burden it sucks! I don’t want to accept I have toxic parents. I am scared and ashamed for some reason to even share this. But I can’t deal with all these anymore. I am broke. Heart broke? Maybe? I just want to stop. Life is already complicated. It always has been. Since childhood. Getting bullied, teachers making fun of me, being told I am ugly, worthless, dumb, idiot, can’t do anything in life, fake friends, idk a lot.I wanted to fall in love, I fell also but later got found it was a prank/scam/just playing with me. I am only 18. And all these things, it is too much for me to handle. I am lonely. Scared. And I feel like I just want to die.