life lessons: Enjoy the ride ( CH-12 , How come no one told me that-prakash iyer)

Before you start  a journey , you need to know where you want to go. Thats true for life too. You need to know where you want to go.
Where are you looking for in life?
And even as you try and answer that question,a good thing to remember :success may not gurantee happiness.But theres a good chance happiness will feel like sucess
forget the destination.Enjoy the ride

Personal Growth

I have to go to my one of the friends farewell as she is shifting to some different city. Now the problem is the party will be on 8th June my all boards are finishing on 7th June but there are some entrances from 9-11June in which I will be choosing the 11th June day. Now my parents aren't allowing me by saying that you have exams, but this is not the first time they are not allowing me its more than 5times by saying go after your exams on different different occasions and all time they refused by saying some excuses, even when there were no entrances at that time. Now I am really getting pissed I just feel trapped by their orders...........

Friends

3 weeks later all i want to tell you is how much i miss you or perhaps i want you to tell me you missed me back all along.  Make an excuse like you always did. You see, i keep telling my friends and even myself i don't care but yesterday i caught myself going to the places you usually go to. I thought that maybe i'd run into you. Its so silly of me , thinking that by seeing me you may change your mind. Isn't it funny how i would go back to you in a second? I know i deserve better but the thing is i don't want better. I want you. I wanted you ever since the day i first saw you. It hurts. It hurts that your the only thing my heart  ever talks about when yours has already forgotten about me a long time ago....💔

I am fucked up rn. There is my so called cousin. She is so annoying. Oh my gosh, firstly she don’t know how give someone their privacy so we were sharing a room and she was continuous to stare on my phone and then later at night she kicked me from the bed. Like excuse me the whole bed was empty but she was so attached to me and I had a no space there then I changed the position as I gone to the other side then she did the same so I tried to scoot her and she put her Saliva on my arm. Eww* ik this can be happened but bruh she is 15 and I’m older than her but she have no respect for me she boss on me. I’m so frustrated rn and Idk want someone to judge me. Please try to understand my situation. 

Frustration

I'm feeling lonely and missing my old life...

Lonely

Why does my heart feel so heavy? 

3am Thoughts

recently I invited 2 of the people I hang out with at school and I have been hanging out with them for about 3 years but covid happen and I didn't talk to them then so I changed a lot and so did they but so I invited them over after school in one day I just realized that the only reason I invited them was that I didn't want to be alone this summer I wanted to ride my bike with friends I wanted to play video games with them I want to be honest with them but I don't have anyone for that. The two friends I invited are mean I think. They say things like I wasn't pretty when I was younger and I know that sounds so pathetic to not like yourself for not being pretty but Idk. They also take my things without asking one time they took my phone without me knowing And said things that make me uncomfortable, and I know what most people might say that I should walk away from them right? but no the reason why  I can't is that I'm still in middle school and we have 100 middle schoolers in my grade so I also wouldn't even have anyone else to ask if they can tell me what happened if I was absent. doesn't help that I have social anxiety and that I like to be alone sometimes but I see all these people hanging out with there friends that get them the one's that you are comfortable with like my older brother has those people, And he is the only person I play video games with like I want a friend like him. Back to my first topic I only invited them over so that I can hang out with people this summer but by the way they make me feel I don't know if I want to like I want to tell them I don't like the way they make me feel but I don't want to hurt them.

Anxiety

Anyone from Hyderabad, India

Now&Me Activities

5 years back I was the girl who was scared of going out because I comtinuously felt people might tell me something which would hurt me, I would suffer from panic attacks and was suffering from anxiety issues. But over the years when I sought professional help and started working on myself and my growth in particular I felt why would I care about the people outside? Are they even important and worthy of my time if they demean me? I started realising the significance of self love and evolvement and that is what has helped me grow as a human being and let me achieve my goals.

So to all the people if someone is making you feel worthless just cut the crap and stand for yourself and move ahead.

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