"life isn't about surviving the storm, it's about learning to dance in the rain" maybe that's where I'll find the answer

3am Thoughts

Wish to have someone constant

Lonely

This feeling of emptiness it's hard to handle . The thought that you won't treat me like you used to was always frightening today it becomes a truth.
It's frustrating it ain't nobody's fault why are we suffering them.
I wish i could drink a lot so that i forget this pain and stop missing you for a bit

LGBTQ

I feel lonely 😶🥺

Affirmations

How to stop overthinking about something not good your friend said to you about your personality 

I'm pretty sure I'm not straight. It's not legal to be that here. I live in fear everyday. My parents are Muslim too so I'm sure they wouldn't approve.
It kills me inside everyday knowing that I'm not normal. I've always been known as the really smart guy in the community but once my secret is out, I will always be known as the homo.
I don't even know if my parents will want to call me their son too


Coming Out

*Not sure if someone feels traumatized reading this, Believe me I have no idea*
I am feeling sad, conflicted, and a little regretting because of my decision. the decision was the college I decided to go to. There is nothing good here. I scored 97.3% in my jee mains and could have gone to a much better college but I didn't because:
1. the college had very high placement and showed the students lies and now I joined it I know that there is not a single good thing about the college. College administration is useless lazy asses, curriculum sucks, and seniors act like they are Mark Zuckerberg. the only good point is few batchmates are good just that. I worked my ass off for the past 7 8 months since the beginning of the college to make it more fun, interactive but there were no results and should I say not an ounce of appreciation from the students and teachers after the events I hosted and many things I did.
2. That I had a girlfriend and she was going to go to College near me so I thought that why not here then, I know this was the stupidest reason there ever could be (my junior called me dumb for this reason and told me to ask her for the decisions like this I make and I think this was very sweet of her and I do adore her :) ) But the relationship ended with no closure and I was left here with nothing and nothing inside. At one point in time, she was everything to me, and I mean it when I say she was first my best friend then my lover and I lost the two most precious people from my life. One of my friends was there to support me through this time but it is not easy to forget someone who you loved so much that you wrote 1 poem a day for 60 continuous days on her smile to show my love. on the 60th day we broke up from my side, from her I guess it was long before that. 

Today, I get to know that the juniors which will be coming to our college this year are going to a better college as there is no space in the one our college is staying right now and I feel like so so so so crying that what have I done to get all of this in return. I have no friends right now as the group I had is still in contact with her (not sure) but they didn't contact me as they say they live near her, I have no great of a future right now only struggle and I am okay with it but nothing to be happy for or look forward to in my life, no college life, nothing. I try my best to remain positive, believe me, that's why I am still sane but it hurts me that why all of this happening to me, my friends are out there enjoying, she is enjoying herself being content (IDK if they are enjoying or content, they must have their share of problems but I can't help but see that at least they can show they are happy, while I can't even do that). I want to stay away from all of this, I want my life to be happy too. what in the hell did I do wrong to put effort to keep myself sane, one day I will surely go insane, trust me i know, speaking from experience,

Career

Loving someone and not getting the love back it hurts always and I was in need to let go

Cheating

Lol is that true? That boys look 10x better in reality than in picture and selfies. 😂  Do share ur opinion

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