Life is simple & everyone can enjoy it, but as on today most of people are tensed under pressure and struggling with so many things for coming future kal kya hoga

There is quote in Baani - Tu kaahe dole praniya tudh rakhega sirjanhar..

It mean why are we worried, there is a lord who is always there with you to take care of you. But remember he will give you only the right things to you not always demanding one.

lifeChanger!!

Motivation

I feel like I mess up every time...

Mental Health

Drowning deep down in the ocean of my thoughts waiting for someone to pull me out 

3am Thoughts

I feel fragile 
In my mind and my skin

Scared might lose
Somethin precious within

Eager to get it out
The good the bad I've seen.

I wish I could help you
Help me.


-Dear self

Poetry

I wish I wasn't so useless lol

Life

how am i feeling?.... let's just say that complicated, exhausted, confused, and sometimes even numb too. And when i just try to figure out the reason behind me feeling all of this nothing comes to my mind like it's blank in there. So i try doing other things to calm myself or to explain it better i just distract myself from my mind or whatever. 
i just felt like sharing what i am constantly feeling these days and let it all out, maybe talking to strangers will help getting some perspective.

Confusion

Depression is a mental illness that fucks with your mind, that becomes friends with your thoughts and slowly manipulates them...it tricks your mind especially the way you see yourself. It consumes you from the inside that slowly appears to show from the outside, it makes you exhausted...dull. 
Then you slowly start to feel anxious and your self-esteem starts to disappear, you feel self-conscious about your surroundings like itś the first time you´ve seen them. You feel like you can´t breathe like you are gasping for air, you start to realize that not only you have depression but the anxiety decides to introduce itself.
You are locked inside your house scared and anxious to leave, but relaxed and safe inside. But as time passes by you forget about the safeness and relaxation you felt..like it was never there, you feel stressed and pressured from what has become today.
When you forcefully take yourself out or your family takes you with them to buy the groceries, you feel everyone's eyes on you, you want to run and get as far as possible but can´t. The mask you wear makes you feel somewhat safe, but feel exposed at the same time.
One of the worst feelings is when you feel looked at while trying to gasp for air but have the mask on that doesn't let you, your mind goes black and can´t think of anything but the stupid manipulating voice in your head.
I feel overwhelmed and scared...
 

Depression

Honestly I'm so done with my life right now, that I just wanna end it all but couldn't build the courage to do so, eh its so suffocating either way ughh

Society

Confused and disoriented about everything in life right now like I was so confident about my career and my life choices when I was a child I knew that I wanted to become a doctor the moment I knew in my life that my parents were doctors to. But now I am confused and disoriented like each and every adult I am 18 now and I cannot even tell you how rough my teenager years were. I went through depression and anxiety and my parents took me to a psychiatrist when I was 15. I was extremely pressure by my school and the exams were very stressful for me. Additionally I was also bullied by my classmates in junior high which led to a lot of anxiousness and depression and then I just stayed at home. And now I am confused and disoriented since I took commerce as my field and I am not even interested in numbers. I was not being able to perform or even stand in the science class so I had to leave. Now I have to handle whatever I have got. What would you do if you were in my place and just as confused and disoriented as I am. How will you get to know what the right path in life is because I am absolutely clueless. Like my parents are luckily supportive of me because they know how stressful teenage years and school can be. But at times even they get pissed off with how lightly I am taking my future to be. Can you all help me get clarity and go through this please.

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