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3am Thoughts

Heyya everyone 
Hows all ?

It's my first time on these app ...getting further to know more about it ...~

To get over someone delete all the music you listened with them or listened while thinking about them. Thanks me later 😛

My nail broke 😭😭😭

Anger Issues

Heyyy theree!!

कहीं तो बीते कल की जड़ें दिल में ही उतर जाती है,
कहीं जो धागे टूटे तो मालाएं बिखर जाती हैl
 :')

Music

How do I break up with someone when i still have feelings? The thing is I’m going thru a hard time with my mental health etc and I just feel like it would better for me. It’s not them at all it’s just me.
Help?

LGBTQ

my mother says I don't feel like family but more like a neighbor. she said I don't talk to her often that if she didn't start the conversations I never do and I make us feel distant and we don't know each other well she said I don't share anything with her and therefore, I'm more of a neighbor in another room. we frequently watch movies together that I make her watch but when I said that she replied with 'well you don't let me talk as we watch it and then ask me if I remember the characters' that's because she doesn't even watch it. she's always on her phone or doing something else as we watch it ofc I said that but then she said you don't let me talk afterwards too. like she actually watched it and there's something to talk about. I just don't know how to talk okay? I don't do anything all day my uni is on break so telling about her my day would be just "I slept and looked at Instagram all day" I said that to her and she said then send me the funny vids. everything I watch is about my interest and most importantly in English which she doesn't know. she said I could translate it to her?? it loses the meaning and makes me lose interest in interacting with her because it's so forced. she said your sister can talk we talk everyday. but I'm not her I don't know what to talk about. when I do she always brings the topic into either telling me to cook for the faimly or telling me to gain weight and how unhealthy I am. I said that to her and she said "you always got an answer for me don't you, always talking back to me" I'm so hurt. I really love her in my own way for me she's a precious family member. I just don't know how to talk. I can't say my secrets bc I know she'll get mad. I try to spend time with her in my awkward way of being in the same room but that's not enough for me to be a family member I guess. I don't know what to talk about and that's always been so for the past 18 years. that's just how I am I don't know how to suddenly become an extrovert or have social skills. she said you have a brain so find something we both like to talk but when I ask her what she likes sje doesn't answer. says you should know that but how am I supposed to know if you don't tell me? on weekdays she's at work and weekends she watches neflix. but we don't like the same shows. and I still watch it with her. what else am I supposed to do? I don't have anything I like and she doesn't have anything too. what am I supposed to talk about our non-existent hobbies? my days going by sleeping and looking at my phone? how I hate my major and listen to her say you should study? is that gonna make me faimly? tell her about the time I had a date so she can freak out and possibly tell my dad who would probably take my phone and crush it so I don't do anything? tell her about my friends life as if I have any? tell her about clothes I wanna buy so she can call them ugly and too revealing? tell her about my problems so we have a fight? show her this app translate all of it to my language and hear her say how ungrateful I am and she didn't do anything bad to me? go to her with my crying face right now and see how much angrier she gets? tell her the foods I like so she can tell me I'm so unhealthy? I don't even have anything else in my life. that's all I am and I know the outcomes if I say it. our relationship will just get worse. and she'll start going thru my phone probably. tbh I'm scared of her finding this app the most if she somehow translates it and sees my silly problems she'll get so angry WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING BAD IF YOU WANT SOMETHING TO CRY ABOUT I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU MY FATHER USED TO BEAT ME WE HAD TO COOK AND CLEAN WE HAD TO EAT WHAT WE HAD YOU UNGRATEFUL KID YOU THINK YOU HAVE PROBLEMS? DID YOU GET 'TRAUMATIZED' BC I SAID YOU DON'T TALK? yeah I think I'm gonna lock this app. or maybe I should take risk and tell her all I don't know I'm just really sad and fed up. 

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