Lately been feeling a bit nervous for starting a new journey,
Today my little sister said c'mon being nervous isn't your thing being badass is.
Sometimes all you need is a hype

Caregiver

Im new here so ill just start typing. My boyfriend and i have been together for 10 months now this is my first relationship and its been so tough ive always wanted to have a boyfriend and see what is like and stuff. We been through so much and ive gotten so sick in my mental health that i dont even know what to do or where to start myself. 

Insecurity

It's britney bi_ch and I'm back 

Coming Out

Help me!! I hate everything n everyone in my life rgt nw n more than that I hate myself fr that. I just want to have a normal life is it too much to ask for. why can't god give me atleast a simple normal life. My father is an alcoholic n I m so scared that one day he will leave me fr ever.. my heart hurts while writing this but I m so scared. Pls help me! I dont wanna die I m just 19 I haven't seen anything. But everyday its just too much I can't sleep at night bcoz of these scary nightmares that I get. I m afraid to be alone, to sleep n do anything. everything is just too disturbing fr me. I get irritated so easily n wanna lash out at ppl fr no reason. I know this is nt me but don know why  this keeps on happening. Help me pls! I dont want my family to know this. They are already having a tough tym I don't wanna be burden on them.

Family

Ever since i was born ... Since I came to my senses everyone is just saying that oh you're girl don't do this, don't do that. Don't go out too much, do the house work as if I've made to be a servant . As if I've born to please man. Not having my own life . They Restricting me . I can't go out alone.
Why can't they see that I'm in pain. why can't they see my tears . Why can't they see that i am a human too. I have my own dreams....
From a very young age , the age where kids are happy , they enjoy every moment, they laugh they play ,
I on the other hand was praying that i should die. There has never been a single moment in my whole life where i was truly very happy to be alive , to be given this life....
And now too at this moment i wish to have born at the time where people would bury there daughters as soon as they were born. 
I Want to die.
Some times i wonder to myself why are girls suppressed so much in this society. Why do people use us. Why do they see us as mere "things" .
Are we not humans. Do we not have wishes. Do we not have dreams.
I don't want equality . Who wants to be equal to this gender(male) anyways . They're just psychos, wierd ANIMALS who are trash on this planet. Who wants to be equal them . I just want freedom. Free the way had made themselves free.
Of course there are good male humans too. Who sometimes understand our feelings our pain. But those types are very hard to come across....
As a girl who has lived in this vicious society . I wish to not live anymore. I guess death would be easy than life.
 


Depression

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed again today
And I don't need to see a mirror to see this look upon my face
I'm not quite the ray of sunshine everybody thinks I am
No, the sky is never clear
It's always partly cloudy with a chance of tears

-Skylar Grey
(Verse from Song "Partly Cloudy with a Chance of Tears")

3am Thoughts

प्रिय से प्रियतम भी
एक वक़्त के बाद
नहीं समझ पाएगा तुम्हारे भाव
अंतरतम में दम तोड़ेंगी भावनाएँ
मुँह से नहीं निकलेगा एक शब्द
आँख से ढलके आँसू
खो जाएंगे मौन में
और ये सब
सहज होगा
नहीं सोचोगे ऐसा क्यूँ हुआ
बदलना नहीं चाहोगे कुछ भी
एक गहरी साँस लेकर
लग जाओगे अगले काम पर

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