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Happy Diwali 🎇🪔 to my Now&Me family...
Wishes you happiness and prosperity too .. 

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This was my favorite poem I wrote back in highschool.


Title: Crimson

A wine glass falls
Shattered
The pieces sprawled across the oak floor
The substance
Now running away from the damage

The Wine
Reflected a deep red
It started to seep through the floor
It stained anything it could touch

I reach- I feel
My hands now stained red
Every crevis is now dyed crimson

Running down my arm
Ribbon like- it embraces me
Cold
Yet warm- like hands in the snow

I touch my face
Now- Covered in red
Marks of crimson- Forehead, cheeks, and neck

I question myself- is my mind sick?
Citrus smell- unbearable
I run
I run like the crimson on the floor

I scream

The red wine runs
Running down my eyes
Running out of my mouth
The floor- Now covered in Deep red

The light sees me- It laughs
The light killed me- It runs
Now Night- sees only crimson
It cries

3am Thoughts

It sucks that i miss him so much when he doesn’t even cares.

Love doesn't have a particular meaning it starts with an attraction and continues with understanding, but seriously it's a beautiful feeling...😍

Love

I feel I am very disturbed. I don't know what to do. And I have no idea what Am I doing. I don't even initiate anything just, what's happening is going on. I am not doing good at work too, Not even saying anything. Actually I am just avoiding talking to people. It feels sometimes it's creepy, overwhelming, disturbing, uncomfortable or untrustable people. I just wanna disappear now, coz I am just good for Nothing. I am doing nothing in life. It's just wake up, feeling another day, work when dying inside, then make something or maybe take a walk and just lie down for hrs for sleep. Then see whole life, work everything in dreams, get up in the middle, here and there and sleep for sometime. Then wake up... What the he** is going on? I am just so numb or what. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I am irritated, frstated. Sometimes just ok. Like why tf Am I alive?  

Life

I would go to the end of the world if I need to in order to protect Meredith ￼

I am in phase were people judge me and miss interpret me. 

LGBTQ

so i switched schools. i switched lasr year, last year i cried the first few weeks bc of stress and i didnt know if i made the right decision of switching chools. last year and the beginning of this uear i feel left out in my trio. first i was w/one friend and we were, still are very close. them someone also came. We became a trio. since then i felt left out, idk hoe to join their conversation etc… they have handshakes etc rogether and when they make tiktoks i just stand there, they say come but idk what to do so i just sometimes come in tiktok and go bc iek what to do yk. And 2 years ago, my old school, i was in a trio and we were all besties but then the other kinda left us and we still were besties, me anr the other. but at the end of that year i was also sad idkkkk. Point of this is, idk if inmare a good decision leaving the old school. was it a good decision or bot? Also idk what to do, talk to my mom or sth? IDK! and pls tips maybe on how to make trios work:((( hoe like i can be more in tiktoks what i can do and join the conversation, You know, talk. Bc in the trio im close with one and the other not rly. Soo i want to grt closer with her but idk how.

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