Anxiety

Therapist ban jaana chahiye mujhe.

3am Thoughts

No matter what happens, you keep moving forward!!! Tatakae!!!

I always want to someone who love me wholeheartedly . I feel comfortable in normal sms text.
Actually mujhe bilkul comfortable feel hi nhi hota chaiye career ho ya relationship.
Humesha se bs yhi raha ki koi toh aisa milega jo sach me maan se acha ho... Fb par koi mila  baatein hui ek dusre ko smjhe or jb mujhe pyar hua tb khai or ushne shaddi kr li , dil tut gya or jod nhi payi ...Ab mujhe trust nhi hota kisi par... Try kiya fb par koi mila...jise mujhe se pyaar hua , aj 4 saal hogye baaat kartein h but ladhtein zyda h kyunki mein s*x par baat nhi krti orally bhi nhi. Na kabhi mili na kbhi personally jaanti ,no.bhi exchange nhi hua .
Kbhi itna excited nhi hua milne ko na no.share kiya😔 kyunnki mene nhi kiya but still he loves me lekin hum s*x par baat nhi karti isliye ladai hoti h or shaddi bhi krega but first talk on that topic nhi hota feel comfortable
sb secondary h sb kuch
Ab problem yh ki mene uski feeling ki respect karti hu bura lgta h ki mein apna past experience se usko trust nhi kar paa rhi😔😔😔
Kuch bhi shai nhi job nhi h aisa lgta h mere pass koi capabilities hi nhi h...
Or yeh frustration badhe rhi h ...smjhe nhi ata h mein galat hu ya wo sahi h ..
Smjhe nhi ata konsi job kru ? 30 ki age h shaddi ka pressure upper se sb jagaha se no hopes.
Smjhe nhi ata kya kru ? Kaise confidence feel karu😔😔

Depression

Pradhan Mantri Humour Badhao yojna ki bhot jarurat hai, 95% logo ka sense of humour abhi bhi kapil sharma show hai.

Abhi phone switch off kar dunga fir muu phula k baith jaogi 
Falana dhumkana karogi 
Tumhe dil m jagah cahiye thi ya mere phone me ? 
Ek kaam karta hu mil k apna phone de deta hu ussi k saath sab kar lena apni life b usi k saath bita Lena 

Anger Issues

Had a Bad day 😞😞😞
Already I'm on my periods
Morning se boss is like this is imp complete this... Ek khatam nhi hua ki dusra work hai he ready...
Mom and Dad didi ke saath Jiju ke gaav ja rahe hai toh unka scene alag...
Unke har 1 HR ke baad call ye nhi mil raha woh nhi mil raha mera woh shirt kaha hai woh saree kidar hai... Waha se didi ka call mera ye saman bhej woh saman bhej ye bhi pack karwana woh bhi pack karwana ab job pe mera kaam Karu ya ye sab dekhu... Frnd ke bday ke liye Amazon se items order kiye the unka delivery date next week tha woh aaj pe leke aaye... Maine complete order ka payment Kiya hai online... morning tak Already Paid bata raha tha... Abhi evening mein frnd ko call gaya ki pay on delivery aa raha hai delivery pe pay karna hai wtf yrr... (It felt so embarrassing yrr ) Jo payment Kiya tha woh paise kaha gye pata nhi... Evening ko Ghar aayi mom dad ne adhi adhuri packing ki thi... Ye nhi Mila unko woh nhi Mila unko... uske chakkar mein bus tak late pohche toh didi ko gussa aya ki maine dhyan nhi Diya sab mein...
Meri kya galati hai batao meri kya galati hai muje jitna hua maine kiya yrr... Kaha kami reh gyi mujme yrr
😞😞😞
Sab mere saath he kyu....
Aur aaty toh sab ek saath kyu ?? Bhai😞😞😞



Soooooo got into a typical situation today😂 my ex texted hii to me with her pic in which she had applied sindoor and was wearing a saree. I was speechless as she was looking damn hot in that pic, we had a long healthy conversation though she isn't married yet nor she is in another relationship, bda weird sa funny sa feel hua yr, she broke up because she realised after couple of years that she got bored and now in no way i am going back to her, I don't have feelings for her but oh god she looks so perfect in traditional, baat krna start kru dobara?

Girlfriend

Kuch kehana hain tumse
Pehla akhri pyar ki zikir karna hain tumse

Dekha hain pehle bhi bhaut si muskusratten 
Par aisi apsara ka aksh toh dika he nehi 
Baki toh sajate hain apni laaliyat dikhane 
Par Tumare muskan pe he hazaron katal hue hain kahi
Illzam bhi hain tum pe ki nazaron mein nasha kele challti ho
Kabhi humare jism mein bhi uttarke dekho ki humare dil mein tum baasi toh nehi
Pigal gayi hain sakti humari dekha hain tume jabse 

Kuch kehana hain tumse
Tumhe chupake rakhna hain tumse

Khushboo se tum dil behelati, itmenaan ka ihsas dela ke 
Talab se jo tum hume taddpaati, baahe teri sukoon ke
Roop teri jo aankheen bharti, husn se chuuti rooh humare 
Adhoore pyaar ke laakhon dewaane intazar mein hain tumare 
Phir bhi koi chura na saka woh pakeezgi uss paani se 
Naseeb tha shayad jo mila diya mujhe uss sish mehel ke rani se 
Kash tum phele hi mile hote , toh dil na thoot ta kisi aur se

Kuch kehena hain tumse 
Samet lo mujhe ki thoot chuka hoon pehle se 

Puchti hain woh har bar ki mere charo aur anderi kyu hain,
Bhalla Zindagi itni bhi mushkil kyu hain,
Kaise bataon unnhe ki woh khud meri chand ki Noor hain, 
Takleef se tadapke nikli hue Kohinoor hain.
Tumare hoto ke paas jo til hai woh ujala hain 
Phela ishq zakam tha toh akhri ishq malham hain.
Thoote Dillon se hi toh Mohobat zinda rehti , bewafaon toh thoodne mein haasil hain kabse 
 
Kuch kehena hain tumse
Jeene ka tamana hain tumse

Nashe mein likhdu woh baat nehi ho tum
Adoora shabd hoon main pura shayari ho tum 
Kya batayon ki mere liye kya ho tum
Dil ki dhankan ho tum ya mera hoorur 
Rooh ke sukoon ho tum ya koi fitoor 
Khayalko se zyada saanson mein bassti ho tum
Pyaar se zyada mere liye zindagi ho tum 
Yakeen nehi hota ki dewaana hua hain dil phir se 

Kuch kehena hain tumse
Zindagi ke wade nibhana hain tumse 

Lagata hain tum nehi toh dhadkan bhi nehi 
Tumare Bina zindagi bhi nehi 
Tumari badti ummar mere baho mein ho 
Aur mera mehenge khawab tumare aakon mein ho 
Har ladai mein tumse haarun bass tumari jeet ke liye 
Yahi jeet hain meri zindagi ke liye 
Sochta hoon ki Mujhe toh tumse bhi pehle marna hoga,
Kyu ki waha bhi tumare liye mujhe jannat sajana hoga 
Par tum toh saath ho mere chand raath ke jaise

Kuch kehena hain tumse
Maut ke baad ka bhi saath maangna hain tumse

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