Kya kabhi aisa hota h ki kisi dost se darr lagne lage uska call aaye toh uthane m hesitation ho as if kis baat par she can get pissed off you just wanna stay away from that person use sach bolne ki himmat na ho paati ho because that person is so unpredictable, is it bad to think about your own mental health 
Some people are really toxic for you but i m really emotional and i feel like hurting myself is better that hurting someone else 
But that's not right because she really disturbs my psyche
What should I do 

Friends

Thoughts can change your emotions realistically, but emotions corrupt your thinking process..it looks like an intertwined dilemma but that's what the delusion is..

Psychology

Today is our 2nd engagement anniversary n it is an arranged marriage. 

He wont celebrate or even send me heartfelt wish. 

N here I try to celebrate every little thing I can to be happy but it hurts when my better half is not expressing feelings when he knows that, it will make me happy.

He is tougher on outside n softer inside, but I wish he could just really put it in words for me.

Anyway, 🙂

Compassion

I feel lonely what should I do? Well, I don't know. It's always a tricky question, isn't it? Wondering what to do while your mind goes blank and a thousand kind of feelings turn into anxious thoughts. Ugh its just the worst things ever!!! One idea which does pop into my head when I feel down is that how cool it would be if we could just turn off our thoughts for some time. Wouldn't it help us regain some strength to go through the stress all over again?? Well, I think so. Sometimes the entire 'I feel lonely what should I do?' becomes too much to handle for me. In that moment, I just want to leave everything, lay down on the floor and turn off my mind for a few hours. It honestly feels like a big task, to feel happy or even content with yourself when it all comes down to just "I feel lonely what should I do?" I mean it is so shitty that even the things that give me pleasure seem very boring and uninteresting. God can I ever be happy??? Well, I guess not any time soon :P It becomes severely draining, this feeling and the constant questioning in mind, 'I feel lonely what should I do??' as if it is an obligation for me to do something or else I cannot fit in!! It is ridiculous I know, but I cannot help it at times. So maybe it's time I explore myself a litle bit more and realise what is it that I must do to avoid feeling lonely and maybe develop a healthy coping mechanism. 

Lonely

Jisko dekho aaj vo sab relation me he yaar aese raaste se chalne ko bhi abhi takleef hoti he rona aajata he😭 aur ek me yha jiska ek bar bhi relation nhi hua he kisike sath bhi😭😭
Bigboss mujhe hurt ho rha he bigboss

3am Thoughts


This is a small conversation in bhagwat Geeta between krishna and arjuna... When Arjun asked why I do Bad things even though i know it's bad but still i do bad things.
Then Sri Krishna tells arjuna about organs, mind and intellect.
avritam(coverd up) jnanam(knowledge) etena jnanino nitya-vairina(biggest enemy of all knowledgeable person)
Our knowledge gets covered up and it's the greatest foe of all knowledgeable individuals.
kama-rupena(lust)kaunteya(arjun) dushpurenanalena cha(fire like sin)
It comes in the form of lust and it's like the fire which never stops burning.
Like when we drink alcohol it gives us pleasure but our craving for it increases more.

indriyani(organs) mano(mind) buddhir(brain/intellect) asyadhishthanam uchyate(stays here)etair vimohayatyesha(it's confusing) jnanam(knowledge) avritya dehinam(covered up)
It enters from our organs, mind, and intellect and stays there. And covered up our knowledge and makes us confused in life.


tasmat tuvam(therefore you) indriyanyadau(organs) niyamya(control) bharatarshabha(arjun)
No one can control their mind and intellect so you don't need to control your mind and intellect.
First, regulate your organs which are controllable.
Eat what is good, see what is good, hear what is good, speak what is good, and clean your body every time it gets dirty. What will u see, eat, speak, touch, and smell. Minds and brain take all these things as data and subconsciously and unconsciously pops them up. Which makes our mind and intellect clear and focused.

papmanam(sin) prajahi hyenam(increase) jnana-vijnana-nashanam(destruction of knowledge)
If you don't handle your organs the sin you are making will increases with time and will destroy your all knowledge.








Mindfulness

Tears have no weight , but it carries 
heavy feelings .😔

I am paranoid of this since very long. I had a online friend a year back we talked for few times only, like a couple of months something. Then I left the app, later didn't he text, nor me. I thought he was lying to me for my attention. But still I feel maybe he was going through tough times.
It was something about a girl ig and mental health.
Still I want to know how's he doing? Nothing much. I hope he is happy. I really want to know or may be talk. But maybe he don't remember me. 
Ughh

Life is so uncertain...unknown turns...sometimes uphill, and sometimes downhill...you never know...u just need to tighten ur  seatbelt and be ready for whatever may come!!!!

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