Kinda not nice ,kinda feel eaten up by my own thoughts ,i love this boy ,love him to death ,we have this amazing bond that is unbelievable both emotional and physical ,but i kinda dont need his emotions and we were fighting because of a girl that i think is kinda toxic and i really feel numb inside ,it is okay to keep the relationship or its not worth trying !

She was kinda my best friend and then she started texting him at night and then then were almost together after we broke up ,i was really shook that the two persons i trusted the most were almost together and then that insecurities is still there and i dont know how to remove it 

Ya i get that i should let go but if he is the one and you know that i have this amazing bond with him and i just dont know how to let go ,know wht i mean!

If you really feel that the boy is worth then please just talk frankly i am sure he will understand you if he really cares

Giving up is never a option and universe is there to decide
But I can say one thing communication is a way so 
Sit and talk 
And find a way
Rest believe in universe

Stress

What is your fantasy?

Other

Suggest me a way to train my mind to develop a new mindset

Mental Health

Has anyone started watching Bel-Air?? they really made Carlton into a Dougebag and Druggy

Hey everyone!!
So just made this account and yeah just wanted say hi lol

Music

I feel miserable for some reason all the time i pretend i dont care but eventually i get caught up in my own feelings in the middle of the night i wonder why my parents had me if both of them arent in my life im 14 yrs old i havent seen my dad in 2 yrs and my mom doesnt really do anything to communicate with me when i was born my father's family tried convincing him i wasnt his child because my skin color was lighter that his but i take after my grandma when i turned 2 my dad broke up with my mom and left he doesnt even pay child support when i was 3 my mom didnt return the night on my birthday and when she came back like 3 weeks later she was pregnant with my brother then left after giving birth like 2 months after she then kept returning to my grandma so that she could settle her debts i cant remeber her getting me a single thing on my past birthdays and when i was 12 i visited my only grandpa for the first time in my life who rejected me the moment he saw me he said he wanted nothing to do with me ,was it my hair that was cut short with blue dye idk but then not just that my mom has the audacity to ask if i love her she hasnt been in my life ofc id say no but she kept saying i love u repeatedly was she tryna make me feel guilty or something i just wanted to share this since i think i might have anxiety all i wanna do these days is sleep too im tired of life sometimes why didnt my mom just get an abortion when she found out she was pregnant with me 

Hare krishna♡
He is literally best 🙌i m surrendering to you.... Yayy ik u would never let me fall.. Love u krishna 🙌 

Affirmations

I wrote this in another app called vent me… 

Are you feeling similar or ? Give me your thoughts. 

Idk where I stand right now in life… I want to be alive but to be honest, I don’t. I don’t want to end my life because I do have things to look forward to but those things aren’t any of my accomplishments… These things are nephews and nieces growing up, seeing friends and family succeed, and things of that sort; but I don’t see anything promising for myself . I don’t see happiness, all I see is stress. I don’t see success, all I see is failures and more stress. I don’t see a happy and healthy relationship, all I see is me clinging on to someone who doesn’t show me real love. 

.. I couldn’t finish my thoughts b/c I was at work.


Life

I feel I am an utterly selfish person and nothing good is happening in my life. I have left my job, have an exam in a week, got no motivation to read and feel like I am letting my life go into the gutter in front of my eyes and in my full conscience. 

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