Kehnde Maahde Bandeyan Naal
Tera Sath Sunida
Enna Naal Changi Hundi Yaari Koyi Ni
Tere Geet’an Vich Bol Hunde Gaalan Warge
Kaka Ehe Teri Kalakari Koyi Nahi

~~ Moosewala

Aaye haaye veere.... dil da ni maada... Tera sidhuu moosewala

On same earth
Below same cloudy sky and that moon... and those billions of starts

So same and so different are we !!!

3am Thoughts

Do you miss someone right now?


Friends

Just going through that one day, when you feel it should have worked out and everything would have just fallen into its places and life would be sorted,
And suddenly get hits by all the moments that brought it here..
Just flickering through thoughts and time.

Now&Me Thinks

Everyone is fu**ed up in some way. It's just that some people are better than others at hiding it.

Chi-cha?? 

I hate my parents. They had an arranged marriage when my mother was 18 and was about to complete high-school and my father was 35. They never had a very cordial relationship. 

As I grew older I started noticing these things. Initially it used to make me upset but slowly I started accepting the things the way it is thanks to our great Indian Society which is not build on love but co-dependency. 

They had my brother after 1 year of marriage. He was unwanted but my paternal grandmother forbade aborting him as he was the first child. He didn't care about these stuffs because he was never at home. His life mostly revolved around school, activities and playing cricket like any other 90s kids and at 18 he moved out for college and since then he always stayed in some hostel. 

I, on the other hand, was born a girl (pretty much unplanned after 9 years but they decided to go with it) was not allowed outside so I observed home life much more closely than my brother. But for few years I observed how dysfunctional and physically and mentally abusive my family was. I curse my parents for bringing me into this world even after knowing that they didn't share an affectionate bond. Isn't 9 years long enough to decide that your marriage is already fragile? They already knew that they had to drag this marriage for the society. 

I hate them for making me a part of their misery. This isn't like my mother couldn't have gotten an abortion because she was perfectly fine to get one and she discovered she was pregnant with me after 1 month. It's like their motto was 'we have misery in our lives and we will bring two more to make their lives a living hell as well to lessen our miseries'. 

I'm already emotionally exhausted and everyday seems like a burden. I cannot study, eat, sleep like normal people do. I'm just tired and want to end everything. Only one more year and I will be off to college but that will only happen if I get good grades. How am I supposed to study when basic things surviving seems like a burden to me. 

One more message for newly married couples if you are not happy in your marriage or you are still not sure whether you are happy or not please don't bring children in this world. It's selfish to drag other people into your hellish life without their fault.

Suicidal Ideation

I’ve gotten out of a relationship 3 years ago and frankly I’m not over it still. I feel like I’m odd because the common perception I got from my support group is I have to get over it. Obviously, that going with out saying but the question is how do you truly move on when you still love the person… I feel helpless, I still have reoccurring dreams that leave me with a lot of sleepless nights. I cant connect with other potential partners which makes me feel guilty for wasting their time.

Breakup

How do we know our significant other d
oes not prioritize us? I feel he cares more about his friends and family than me. All his plans revolves around them. I've talked about how I feel about this to him, but he just keeps saying I'm just feeling that way and it's not true.

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