Just yesterday, one of my professors died from heart failure, which honestly gets you thinking about death. It seemingly was a sudden death & it was pretty shocking.
I’m extremely, incredibly anxious. I think I suffer from a disorder but I’m unable to get help at this point of time, but I think I should, and I want to. But I have no way of doing so right now. I’m constantly anxious about the well being of everyone I am close to, the idea of losing someone to death scares me so much that I cannot handle myself, or deal with it. And no matter what happens it is something I cannot shake off.
I’m scared. I’m incredibly scared of losing the people I love and I don’t understand what to do and how to deal with it. I know I need help but I don’t know how to get it. I just don’t want to be anxious anymore but every moment, every thought just makes me so goddamn anxious I don’t know what to do. I’m so incredibly scared of death. I don’t understand what to do, and I don’t know how to deal with myself anymore.
I know it might sound weird, but are you legally a minor or an adult?