Just want to share… i have a fear of people like in crowd i got nervous due to which i am not able to drive any vehicle. If I told this to anyone then they are like you have to drive no matters what you may overcome your fear. 
My question is it necessary to do everything like others do.
Why people are forcing me to do everything in their way

Same case is with me 
You do your best it doesn't matter a person thinks about yourself. It matters you think about yourself 🥲

No , it's your choice not people's choice to  how you live your life.
" Your life your rules"

Anxiety

I m so confused in my relationship he is my closest friends we are more than friends but he didn't any commitment what should I do wait or him to commit or should I move on.   

Confusion

There’s always a day that ends up with you being confused about life. You fail to make decisions (not right or wrong, you’re just unable to put a finger on anything at all) at work, in personal life and with your social life even. 
Is there anybody out here who relates to this, what do you do in times like these? 

My sibling he is having trouble with his mentalhealth and I'm sacred that I'll wake up one day and he'll be gone it's gotten so bad that I can't leave him alone more then a hour or to without having a panic attack I can't go to sleep until he does I watch him well he's sleeping to see if he breathing cause I'm sacred when I wasn't paying attention he took a bunch of pills I haven't been a good sister not even close I want to be better but I always screw it up I should be helping but I don't do good with feelings I don't do good with mine when he tries venting to me I say yeah or well she's a bitch I've heard him on the phone and said nobody would care if I died couple days later he said he tried oding well I was in the room wide awake and I didn't even realize I just thought he was tired i keep thinking about relapsing and I feel selfish for wanting to because of him 

Mental Health

What's your thoughts on online friends and does anyone want to be online friends with me?

Friends

The more I'm growing up the more I'm feeling that being with someone is more difficult than being alone...

3am Thoughts

Hey...
This is going to be a long story...

To start off I think I have some sort of OCD cause I can't bear to see dirty floors let alone walk on them. I stay in my room 24/7 so I always keep my floors clean and get awfully pissed when someone enters the room with dirty feet or slippers, even when slippers are clean they tend to leave some prints on the freshly swept floor. 

I got into a lot of trouble because of this habit of mine, for instance whenever my mom enters my room with her slippers on I tend to lose my calm. It's not like I never explained her why I feel so, but still she never respects how I  feel and just enters and walks in however she wants. Because of this one fine day I ended up in a huge fight with her due to which she stopped talking to me for months together. She's the only one in my family with whom I'm free to talk to or have fun and when she started ignoring me and treating me like i dont exist I went into a lot of depression where I couldnt eat how much I used to and found comfort in self harm. 

After a few months my aunt passed away, shes the only sister my mom had and that left a huge impact on her due to which I kept my griefs aside and started supporting her. Helped her in every way I can. I even let her walk into my room however she wants to, this time though she respected how I feel when someone walks in with slippers and she used to leave em outside and come in to sleep with me. Things cooled down between us and we finally became really close to each other.

Until today....

Like I mentioned I still have that OCD with floors and I neatly swept and tidied up my room. My room has a small balcony which is always quite dusty because of the blowing winds. I swept off that area too because i didnt want any dust blowing into my room. (We used to have a maid but because of COVID my dad stopped letting em in). So, as she wanted to wave goodbye to my cousine who was leaving to his place she came into my room to go to the balcony. I was already losing my calm, but still since I love her and didn't want to hurt her I just complained to her how i just swept the room and she entered the balcony with slippers now when she walks back in my floor will catch that dust. I wasn't making a big deal out of it, I was just having a casual talk. she stepped onto the mat rubbed her slippers to it to leave the dust so that she wont spoil the floor. Instead of walking out, she started stomping all over the cloth that I sit on. Like I sit there all the time! at times with full pants and at times with shorts that means my skin too makes contact with that cloth. she literally stamped all over that cloth, how am I supposed to react? All the frustration that I pent up for months burst out together. I couldnt say anything to her because no matter how much I say she doesnt understand so I started hitting myself infront of her and started crying cause if i said anything it'll hurt her. And in return she started shouting at me saying I should give more importnce to people than floors, I take care of only my room, I dont do anything for the family etc.....

I dont know what to do, I just can't sop crying.....
What do I do? She'll start ignoring me like before again....

Family

should i write a letter to my ex who is in army . 
i have written a letter to him once and his response was not at all good , i wrote a letter of 4 pages and just got a thankyou in return 
but things got better now we are good friends also letters are considered important there . i dont know if i am writing that to get him back or what . 
i do wanna write a letter but i am scared if my efforts would be appreciated because it is tough to write a letter and then post it and then wait for his reply but all you get is just a thankyou and nothing else . 
so should i write or not ? 

Teenagers

Kabhi Kabhi Alfaaz Nhi Hote,
Halaat Byaan Karne ko,

Bas Dil Karta Hai,
Koi Samajh le , Samet le, Sambhal le !!
  

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