vinayak rajput @abhi07
Just vibing with sucidal thought any one sufferingi with this troma🫂🌟
Hey. Its alright to have overwhelming emotions. Think about things you are grateful for? This shall pass too
It’s okay to feel low… But it’s not okay to take that action
Don’t worry everything will be alright
Sweetie @soof
I think you should seek professional help or at least talk about this to someone you trust
vinayak rajput @abhi07
I don’t even trust myself how can I trust someone else 😓🥺
Almost one year ago, I started feeling like only bad things were happening to me, as if I was the most unlucky person on this planet, as if I was a failure and I was insecure around my closest friends. I started overthinking, I was not able to sleep, I didn’t eat properly, I cried a million times on countless midnights and shit was just getting worse. I started to lose my self-confidence, composure, temper, caringness, emotions and all.
Two and a half months ago I stopped talking to people, blocked people on WhatsApp and exited all the groups, deleted Instagram & Snapchat. Locked myself in my room for almost 34 days. I didn’t feel like doing anything, literally didn’t even feel like drinking water. I felt like no one was understanding me and everyone was just acting like they cared for me. I was feeling so hopeless, I was feeling that life had no purpose apart from pain. I felt like I couldn’t trust anyone, not even my own mom. I was feeling like everything was falling apart. I just wanted everything to end somehow. I felt dying was the only way. At one point I tried to overdose myself on sleeping pills.
But I somehow took the chance of trusting another person, I was not willing to go for therapy, I postponed my appointment five times. But finally I took the risk and I went to psychiatrist.
I’ll never regret that day or the decision. My session which was supposed to be for 45 mins, went for three hours. I poured out everything that was bottled-up in me for almost 8 years. And after the session was over the relief I got was one of the most amazing moments in my life. Felt like a 3 ton weight was taken of me. They gave me some tips and tricks to feel better. And almost a month later, here I am out of the suicidal thoughts, still battling depression but feeling optimistic about the future. I’m not saying things are great for me after starting therapy, I’ve had shitty things happen after that as well but, I’m able to deal with them without falling back into the trap of hopelessness or suicidal thoughts
Just take that risk for once bro, just trust for one last time and go to a psychiatrist, trust me you’ll feel better, you’ll get better, you’ll ve able to handle things better.
