Just need a third person’s view on this!!
I have been into a relationship from 2015. I spend lot of my time and energy into it in the beginning. I always saw potential in him and wanted him to do better thinking he would also do the same for me. He did ,but not how i expected.
He persuaded to be little physical. I was little physical but i never initiated on my own. He likes to travel and take me with him but it would always mean staying in one room and being little physical which i didn’t like. He starts doing other stuff like cleaning room, brining my groceries to let me feel he’s not forcing things and making me comfortable.
First time when i told him i want to break-up for the first time, he started crying. I felt really guilty. Now it’s been 5 years being in relationship. In quarantine i don’t miss him that much. I don’t like calling him regularly. I feel exhausted taking care of him and helping him in stuff.
He told his parents on his birthday that he wants to marry me even when i told him not to. When i told him my parents are not really happy to get me married to him, he said he’ll ask my elder sister who knows he’s a friend. I don’t want to involve her into anything. But he keeps dragging her.
I don’t know if i’m emotionally unavailable person or i’m being manipulated.