C @damagedmonarch
Just in my feelings…
I finally broke the cycle of constant misery… at first I told myself “ i mentally checked out a long time ago” which is why I finally had the courage to leave… this is not my first heart break… but this is my first misery… I will never be able to understand what I really want but I know that this is whats best. Why am I dreading this decision all of a sudden? Why cant I just make it easier on myself… I miss our memories … its always the dang memories. I want to get over this soon … what if I made the wrong decision? No… putting myself first is not the wrong decision. What if I never get him back ? … then he wasnt mine to keep… Im so lost. Im so upset at myself. Im so … disappointed. Disappointed in myself? Or you….
