Just had my crying session on the bathroom floor. It was getting to heavy and all of sudden i just burst into tears. I remembered some old conversation from someone who used to be very close to me and that conversation wasn’t so pleasant. I am it hurts differently when they (who used to knew u so well) misunderstood you intentionally, they intentionally mould the things into some disgusting. I only had good intentions but he invalidated it all and made it looks like everything that i did was wrong, that there is some problem with me, that no matter what i did or do will never be enough. They will always find mistakes and then poke you, torture you for the same regardless of their doings.
There is so many things going on right now in my mind that i am not even able to type it out. Whenever i am about to finish my one thought, another one overlaps it and then another one. Its getting to messy and it hurts like hell. All i wanted was to be understood correctly by that person to whom i used to love the most, my frst love, my bestfriend. If thats too much then atleast not to blame me for things which i didn’t do but my god he is way to good in manipulating things. Wherever he lacks to understand the clear picture he mould it into something qhich i cant even explain and when i try to clarify about thats not what i said or thats not what i meant, he just went on like tu toh mahan h, tu kaise galat ho skti h, are bhaiiiii tum baat toh smjho or phr bolo. But no. Instead he just shouts.
I know right
How does it matter? Does my age vlidates all that i am feeling?
Same situation from 1year it all started from here new relationship things got complicated she made A image in her mind that there’s always something wrong in what I say or do had too many fights, too many breaks she always shout like anything she would never understand what I mean to say she takes anything even A simple conversation manipulate it and makes it look like my fault she poked me tortured me regardless of everything I did I was okay with all this i was going through these things on regular basis cause that person was more and most important then these things even then pain I can feel you this post made me cry a lot lots of love and
more strength to you girl ☺️
More power to you too
How did u handle it?
This post made me too much relate would you like to talk I’m sure it will both of us feel better
I haven’t done anything specific I’m just going with time yaa surely things aren’t that bad which were at first but they still are bed there haven’t A single day I didn’t thought about her and the whole thing
Yeah sure
Rameshta @rams
Hey, You might be going through worst more than I can potentially imagine, But I was once in a same boat as you. let me rearrange your thoughts for you! Aight so I will say this that separating from your first love sucks and it would suck even more when your intentions were never wrong.
It seems that you need a closure so that you can finally free yourself from the guilt. If your ex-partner is still open to conversations it’s better to communicate things through, I know this one will hurt like crazy but it will give you some mental peace. And unfortunately if they are not that open minded, then sweetie you should try writing down your thoughts, this will give you a clear picture. If you want to move on make a list about your ex-partner’s worst moments, it could be their bad habit or their lack of listening or not being open minded, and in the future if the memory strikes back and you feel like crying just have a look at the list you created.
I know you would want to make up to them, because you were never wrong and at this point you start doubting yourself, I believe in you, because I can understand how it feels when you love somebody more than yourself.
I am always open to conversation!
I hope it helps! 💌❤
Yeah,thats why i am here, to write down my thoughts because he is not that same person anymore and now i am just disappointed from him because he left and never made an effort to make things right
Rameshta @rams
Things will be alright, give yourself some time.🤗
