Just got to know the meaning of cover page of 'it ends with us'... daffodils signifies the beginning of spring after the cold winters, the bad days

Love

So this things ask how I am feeling today? 
I wish I knew how was feeling more than that i wish I could explain how I am feeling 
The hardest thing lately has been to explain how I feel. How I feel about the day or myself or people around.
I cannot say I feel nothing but what do I feel it so hard to explain how to explain the feeling where you want to cry and stop crying at the same time ,how to explain the struggle behind that beautiful smile of mine how to explain the fears and uncertainty under that sorted facade.
How to explain that I am so lonely that I am afraid and embarrassed to say that out loud. 


Personality Disorder

Virat Kohli is probably the only person in the world who is hated for loving his wife.

Life

Today's question~ What do you think people automatically assume about you when they look at you?

Friends

I got a friend. She is very very close to me. She and me have very close bond. And over the years, I have been close to her even during lockdown. And me being very closed person, I tend to share my things only with my closest of closest ones which generally comprises of only parents and that friend, I call her BRO ♥️ 
But now lockdown reopened and classes have started. I tend to be very very close to her. All the time. My other friends kinda don't like it or whatever it is am not aware of it. They say, I have made one person too much important. They feel, I am sliding them away which I am not. I still care and love them but this person my bro, I can't look at any person away if she is with me. Love her too much. I hope people will understand this.

3am Thoughts

Nap felt like heaven today. Heart at peace. ❤

So its not such a big problem rn
But my gf broke up with me about a hour and a half ago we have been together for almost a month and she said that she feels like i love her a lot more than she loves me which in her look feels not fair she also says that things moved pretty quick..

I am just waiting to talk with her rn cuz im pretty comfortable we can fix it i just cant really do anything else than think about it cuz then when i try to do other things i start to think about it and it makes me feel bad

Breakup

So today, Meredith supervisor contacted me and told me to stop emailing Meredith. ￼

Anger Issues

I'm not doing too great lately. I've been more concerned about what I eat again and I'm scared that I'll fall into old habits and become anorexic again. My dad's started chemo and my coping mechanisms.... they aren't healthy. I haven't cut in a while, that's good, but I... I feel like I've lost someone. Like I am losing someone, and I need to find them but I can't. Because I don't even know who they are. I just wish they could find me or I could let go. I have so many wishes and I just don't know how to handle all this I just need an outlet a way to feel so much netter than I already feel. 

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