just got another panick today, i can't even cry in peace in this house

i can't cry in front of anyone, if i do so they'll just keep asking those stupid questions sometimes we just need to let everything out . i wish i had someone to cry while hugging.

I tried to cry  in alone.. Bul i couldn't. 

so i just LoL'd to reading this, not in jest, but i know exactly what you mean.

Anxiety

I feel so tired and sad all the time, i don’t want to do anything anymore and i feel like i’m letting down the people around me. I’m always comparing myself to my friends that have struggled and have reasons for why they are feeling depressed and trapped and it makes me feel as if i’m making this all up and i shouldn’t be feeling the way because i am privileged i should be happy

Depression

I feel really good right now. But there are times when I feel really low. Not that I need someone, but it gets really hard for me to stay strong. I try, I try my best but I still feel some things missing. 

3am Thoughts

Left that messed up morning  dream behind and woke up...skipped the exercise but atleast meditated...my soul resisted me from doing all the productive stuffs but I m glad that I made my 3.5hrs productive untill now...Hope things go at the same pace. 

Now&Me Thinks

My experience if it all was immense and intense.

Life

I have a very bad past most traumatic.. I left my home  bcz after my father passed away my mom hated me she does the worst things as if  i stayed there they would kill me .. I'm now  alone working with my brother both f us are alone in a place .. I don't feel actually I dont believe in people , so called freinds ,marriages or any kind of relationship 
But daily working dealing with toxic ppl I m loosing .. I feel why m living why im suffering I don't deserve ol dis ppl treat u shit here nobody cares u r dying actually own ppl only backstabb u how can u deal with strangers  .. n I'm jus tired of hiding .. sometime I feel I get panic attack I get easily scared I get fully sweaty I still get nightmares , my heart beat jus run faster  I can't breathe coz f that .. daily gradually I'm loosing my hop   ppl makes fun of me coz I get scared easily while hearing small sound also . It's been 1 year n I'm still facing all this without anyone .. I  wished I could be happy again .

Emotional Abuse

Lethargic suffocated  cant get anything done. Anyone know what might help?

Hi everyone just checking how is everyone doing 
Good vibes to everyone 😊

Happy

(2/2) 

I'm not afraid to die. I'm afraid to stay ordinary. 
I have a wish - I wanna smile when death is standing in front of me. I don't wanna regrets. I want to hug them for giving me enough chances to stay on this beautiful planet. Where I met beautiful people made up of bones & flesh. Where people showed me love for no reason - Imagine it! Where I had enough chances to make them smile. To helped them, to see them relief, and grateful. 

So what are you afraid of? 
Imagine death. What you see? 
Imagine death. 
Because that's a harsh truth of the life. 

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