Abhi

Bro write down everything you are feeling and eventually you will feel better.
No need to tell anyone as no one cares .
I did it and results were apparant.

Just frustrated 😠 

Frustration

Having GFS is heaven 

Affirmations

She is my personal brand of heroin.

3am Thoughts

My breakup was for career, she wants to grow in government job and my job is banking we cannot be together in same house. But we decided to be friends to push each other for career. Now she has found another guy, n here I'm burning. What should I do? To look away?

Breakup

About a year ago, I met a girl online. We talked and I fell in love with her . I asked her out and she said she doesn't have feelings for me . Made sense, we were still friends, we would talk occasionally and checkup on each other . After a month of not talking , I texted her yesterday. She asked if I still have feelings for her, I said yes. She then said that she is now in a relationship. It broke my heart. 

Today I meet a girl with whom I use to share things and talk on call for over nights and etc. And our past story is same. But when I was with her I was feeling a scared don't know why but what if I told her some secrets and etc. And what if she broke trust? And I was just overthinking like a shit how to stop this and be confident and stop thinking negative.

She's gone back to him again most probably, that N guy. I miss her, I wish she knew what is going on with me. How my sleep is on and off. How everything I see in my dreams make me awake and think about her. How I see her face in every face. I thought I'd be okay with her being with someone else other than the person she's currently with but I guess I'm not okay with her being with anyone else. I am obsessed with her and no updates from her life is making me crazy. I've stopped studying, I have become unproductive, I don't feel like doing anything. Where are you, please talk to me. I want to pour my heart out to you

I'm in love with her voice it's so soothing but her behaviour is totally opposite she is rude asf:( 

Crush

Soo, two months ago I broke up with my girl. She was upset about the whole thing. She blamed me for everything that transpired and called our relationship toxic. She told me to move on and also said that our thought processes were so different. I tried to explain to her how much I tried to become a better person for her but she wouldn't listen and told me that there was no need for me to change myself for someone. I haven't talked to her for months. The sad part was that we used to be really good friends. I loved talking to her and sharing things with her. Initially in our relationship, everything was going well. Then I somehow started to become insecure about her because of something that someone told me. I started to treat her badly but somewhere in my mind, I didn't want to do that. After some time I tried to approach her and asked her if we could still be friends. she agreed but we didn't talk much. Then one day I tried to explain to her how much she meant to me but during this conversation, I lost my cool. She didn't say anything. A few days later, she told one of my friends to tell me never to approach her again and also said that she has lost all feelings for me. It hurt me a lot. I never wanted all this to ever happen. I miss being with her. Somehow I feel that she still has some feelings for me. My friends told me to move on but I can't. I hate the fact that she still thinks that our relationship was toxic because of one instance. She never told me how she suffered. How was I supposed to know that she felt bad? I had asked her many times if she felt bad about anything, but she never said anything. I feel guilty about all this. And I haven't been able to forgive myself for it. I'm just a shadow of my former self. I need my mental peace back.

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