Jootha dil
Jootha hai yeh jag sara
Hai badnam pal voh mere
Guzre the Jo dil me tere
Kirdaro me uljha uljha jag sara
Gardish me chamke..voh tuta tara

Music

How to know to move on with a complicated relationship. I mean how come we can know its no more working and Dont be a fool.

I have these thoughts all the time, but how do I know when it's a problem?

Suicidal Ideation

I wan in a 7years of relationship with my ex which we broke in 2017, since thn I was single.. thn in 2019 I met a guy.. we had a great bonding and gradually he became my one and only guy best friend. But after some time I fell in love with him and confessed my feelings on 17,march2020. And that was the last day we talked to eachother.. he didn't felt the same so he chose to get seperate.. since the last day of our conversation I am trying to contact him.. but he always decline my calls ignore my texts.. read my msgs but don't reply... Last night I again texted him and apologies for my mistake/confession.. but after 1year of ignoring me he blocked me.. idk why.. after my confession n his rejection.. I kinda become feelingless for others.. and now I can't live anyone else..

Depression

From a few days i don't know what I am feeling it's jst like i am empty I don't have feelings anymore  I don't feel happy nor sad... Even if I talk to someone it makes me feel irritating and i stop talking to anybody.... I don't know what to do.... Ntg makes me happy 

" where were you before you met me?"

" I think, i was drowning"

"And what are you now?"

"Water "


3am Thoughts

GUYS!!!
I want to read books... but I don't know what to read.
I love some good suspense books. Any recommendations???

Confusion

यद् भावं तद् भवति life is 1 % of what's happening to us and 99 % of our reactions.  We can't control how someone will treat us .we can't compel someone to love us.Heartbreak ,breakups,cheating in relationship. We can't control what we will get . If someone gift you that accept it and move on .overthinking ,finding the cause ,showing the anger ,hurting yourself ,thinking of take revenge won't help at all. Life is all about experiences ...some are sweet some are bitter... we came alone we will go alone ..Acceptance is the only way ..first accept yourself then Try to accept everyone as the way they are ..love you my friends 

Hope you are doing good. And ya, thanks for being here, taking out your precious time to read this. Good day.
I found about my boyfriends' ex(es) today. He used to say me that he doesn't have any and he loves me to the infinity. Today he said pointing out to a girl that "ek time pr y meri bndi thi, use phle ek, bss." It felt weird, idk why! Ik i shouldn't care for anyone's  past. I too had one. He knows everything. But he should have told me on my several attempts of asking him the same. But he didn't, he never! 
A day back, I was casually going through his snapchat, obvsly for pictures. We never cared to peep into each other's prsnl lives, cz the foundation of trust was strong enough. So I saw his text to this childhood friend(yes, he sort of liked or loved her once) The text from his side read so cute, he was addressing her as "bche" he used this word for me. This was my name from his mouth coming out everytime. Not only this, the message was saved from that girl's side. I didn't ask him. Kai baar hota h na ki sch hmare aage hota h, but we aren't brave enough to accept it. I distracted myself there and then.
Today again as I had it in my mind, there was a new chat thing from her.
Just like before, i didn't open it, neither did i ask him about the same.
M phir se us sch ko nhi jan na chahti shayad.
I didn't say him a word, and idk if i even want to.
Ik it's a bit weird of me, but this is how I am feeling. Things don't work like this. Today everytime he asked out of love that I belong to him, i didn't have any answer.
I was there looking into his eyes and all dumb. Idk even if they are casually talking, Idk this doubt is something genuine or not. Hope it takes me somewhere I deserve to be.

I wish you a good day!

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