Jab kisi chiz ko shidat se chaho puri kaynaat use tumhe mila ki shaazish mai lag jaati hai... Mujhe bus itna pata hai zindagi ke ant mai joh hota hai sirf accha hota hai.... Agar abhi kuch accha nahi horaha toh samajh lo dost yeh zindagi ka ant nahi... Picture abhi baaki hai mere dost.






Affirmations

Zindagi kitni mushkil ho skti h ye aaj pta chla h jb zindagi se pala pda h 
Khwaab kaise tut te h ye aaj pta chla h jb khwaab aankhon se hi chhut gye 
Kisi ke bole huye chnd lafs kis trh asar krte h ye ab pta chla h jb har lafz ne andr se tod diya h 
Bina glti se saza kaisi lgti h ye aaj pta chla h 
Jb hrr chhoti se chhoti cheez ke liye mujhe zimmedar mana gya h 
Bezuban hona kise kehte h ye aaj pta chla jb 
Sbdon ka tufan h mnn me Prr muu se ek lafz  bhi na nikla h 
Ankhon pe Ansuo ka bojh kitna jada hota h ye aaj pta chla jb ankhein bhri  h fir bhi muskurana pdd rha h 

Delusion

Why today's youth is so depressed, matlab ladne ki himmat nahi hai ya ladna hi nahi chahate? Arey yaar thoda toh effort marna  hi padega na... Khudki khushi ke liye 🕯️

Adulting

Logo ki love bites ho rhi h aur humari mosquito bites 🥹🥹🥹

Mental Wellbeing

It was one of the working days in Diwali in 2019.I entered the office as usual and fell nervous to see all the team mates including the manager wearing eastern outfits.
"Why nobody told me? Even the guy who was absent yesterday came in Eastern attire",I talked to myself.
My mood was off and I was not looking anywhere or at anyone but my laptop.
I heard manager taking my name , "Vinayak" I turned back thinking he wants to talk about some task."Build baad me nikal,pehle idhar help kar",he humilated me for my off mood instead of asking what went wrong and simply asked me to help out in Diwali lighting.

They were taking group photo,one of the team mates asked me to capture the picture I said my hands shiver and my manager cracked the joke "Comedy he" without knowing about my anxiety issue.

The team had planned to go for office outing and fun activity.Those who were not going for outing were supposed to attend office.I decided to attend office due to my anxiety issues.
The evening before going to outing the manager asked "Finally kon kon nahi aa raha he?" and one fellow pointed finger towards me.
"Dharti ka he hi nahi wo,dusre hi planet ka he.Usko chod ke aur kon nahi aa raha he bata.Jo kal office nahi aa raha he usko us din ka code mail karna padega,kaam productive hona chahiye na", the manager again showed his harsh side with sarcasm.

I was (and I am still) among those who take ownership of work,who cares to see what may go wrong in future and make optimisation in code.
If I am (or anyone else for that instance) not interested to participate in things other than work those choices are expected to respected and not humilated.

But wait,he is my manager! Elder than me,much experienced than me and we all Indians are brought up with the culture of not back answering even if elders say whatevar they want.
Morever,he may terminate my employment for his own bad behaviour.

I ended up leaving that job without handover and without notice.I left rest of the team helpless during heated situation of release and hence my manager closed my contract instantly!

It was over! I asked myself,"What was I scared of? Why dint I respond with a NO when he told me to participate in diwali lighting? Why dint I back answer him in front of everyone when he was humilating me in front of everyone?"

Most of managers are rude..agreed...they have their own headweight...agreed..we can not back answer them when this rudeness comes with blend of office task but we should definately confront if it hits on our personal choices.
We may listen to the shouts for mistakes in work but not on choices made for out of office activities.

We all come together to get the projects done.We follow the hierarchy which is fine but if it hits your nerve you should speak out without the need to explain why at first place you made that choice.

Anxiety

She left me saying.. Go concentrate on ur career and don’t overthink..! Now i have a govt Job..🙂should i text her?
Aapki raaye.?

One of my friend I really liked him I know him from many years now....he always send me memes and other stuff on social media and I always thought he too likes me once I tried telling him that I like him..as my parents are now searching a partner for me pehle makne yaha waha ki baate nikali he said I want to concentrate on my studies toh maine aage baat nahi badhai mujhe usse disturb nahi karna tha as uske exams aa rahe the but woh kabhi kabhi mujhe ignore karta hai like whenever I share something with him on social media wob msg kholkar bhi  nahi dekhta ...maine bhi uske sath yahi kiya 2-3 baar I didn't replied but woh fir bhi mujhe msgs karta hai....mai kya karu I am not understanding kya chal raha h...seeing this I don't want to approach I want him to approach m

One Sided Love

I sometimes dk y all of sudden start thinking about you sweetpie yk .. khi kuch galt to nhi kr diya na maine , I feel I did very bad to you :'( 
What to do   ... 
Leave it 

3am Thoughts

Ladkiyo ke paas as a boyfriend jao to friendzone kardeti hai . Ladkiyo ke paas as a dost jao to maja nahi aata unhe fir kuch samay ke baad baat ni karti. Moral : girls hate men 

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