I’ve decided and I don’t think anything is going to change it’s been the same ride for years now and I know most people won’t/don’t understand that sometimes it’s the best thing for you! I’ve done everything I thought I should to bring better and I’m still in limbo still sad still hurting still blindly believing and hoping for what! I’m ready to be free and I’m content with my choice and it’s all going to be ok, everybody hurt someone just know how to deal with their pain better I however am not one of those people. And I’ve gotten the help I needed therapy actually helped me realize that this is the best thing for me ( that is unknown to them) I’m just writing this because someone will see this and maybe they’ll see how weak I am and decide to be better try harder.