I’ve been working on repairing my relationship with food. These last weeks, I felt like I had finally, finally recovered. I’d stopped always looking for the lower calorie option. I deleted myfitnesspal, even stopped estimating calories. Over the holidays I told myself that I would allow myself to ‘indulge,’ and that it was okay to have a few more treats than normal. But today, after eating dessert after dinner- I just couldn’t. stop. eating. And so I kept eating, even after having properly fed myself using the day. Now, I’m sharing this with people I don’t even know because I don’t know how to cope with the guilt. I just feel so weak, like I can’t even control myself and like I’ll never be able to have a normal relationship with food. I’m scared that I’ve lost all control, that I’ll just gain weight because I’m disguising it as ‘self love.’ I’m so tired. What’s wrong with me?