ive been thinking about this for the past month now and it has been bothering me quite a lot , im quite young and dont know if i should worry about this or not, i have been having thoughts and desires sometimes of wanting to do sadistic things to people( mostly guys or anime guys to be precise) . i dont have much people who im open to talk about things like this bc ik i will probably be judged or people will think im weird or disgusting but im just not sure if i should label myself who is a sadist or someone who just have sadist tendencies, but it has been bothering me quite a lot
it maybejust thoughts, doesn’t mean you want to actually do it. the fact that you realise it is not right to actually do that, is an indication of your sound mind. you should definitely talk to an open-minded counsellor who can try to understand what might be going on in your mind, or if it is something that is just there and nothing to worry about…i don’t really think you’re sadist you just have those thoughts, which is honestly okay because we all have weird thoughts from time to time which we shouldn’t be having but we have no control over. so as long as they’re not taking over your thinking and you are not obsessed with those thoughts then it’s cool, or else, try the counsellor thing, it shouldn’t be a problem m
you know i actually did think about going to a counselor or someone i could talk to but im just not sure if im ready to talk about it , like you said if its not taking over my thinking and im not obsessed i should be fine but it has been like that for a while now ive been thinking about it most of my days and its usually when im not doing something but it always pops up in my mind and today for example i saw a video of some guys just playing around making breakfast with these kind of toys right and one the guys used a gager ( idk how to spell it) to eat his food and when i saw it i was like ohh thats weird , but i felt some kind of “desire” im not really sure ( these guys do weird vids like that they are called unnus annus) , its also like my mind says no but its says yes at the same time its very confusing and it just weird
if the thoughts are getting stronger, then there’s no harm in trying a counsellor. see in any case they have the confidentiality thing so they can’t talk to anyone else about what you tell them, so even if the counsellor is a judgemental jerk, you can just try somebody else. I know it’s costly and all, so maybe you can space apart the new appointments over a period of time. or better yet, how about speaking to a therapist online? like on call or text, that way you don’t have to feel too uncomfortable also, if the thought of speaking to them directly bothers you
