I've been hitting off with this guy for like a week. and we kind of vibe as we both want to try dating. but suddenly today he has kept me on read. I mean I'm not supposed to be overreact but I kinda am. idk it feels bad

Its okay. You just use to talking to him and its the first instance he hasnt responded. Take a chill pill . 

Crush

Breathe in Breathe Out 

Meditation

Yayyyy, finally say No to a social party where i didn't wanted to go, it may sound normal to you all but for me it was really a brave step to say No !!!!! Kudos to me 🤩🥳💫

Compassion

I am feeling very weird. I have been going on for therapy since last 1 year. I feel my life has been on hold since then. Now, my therapy sessions have reduced but I feel my counsellor isn’t taking much interest. He never communicates about my situation professionally.  Since my sessions have reduced I have taken 4-5 disprin in a period of 10 days. Got 3 anxiety attacks. I told him when we met but he didn’t solve my issue. I feel pathetic right now. I’m living life on extreme end. I was diagnosed with prodome psychosis. I feel bad that how even my friends don’t check up on my mental health. Why does the society wait for anyone to take a bad step and then talk about mental health 

Mental Health

I wish I had time travel machine so I could go back in time and meet my grandmother, I want to spend time with her getting to know her, hear her voice , eat her handmade food, I want to know what she thinks of me, I want to know does she also thinks that I look like her cause all the family members says I look exactly like her, I wanna know what a grandmother love feels like.
I wish I had a chance to meet her
I wish that our family could meet her cause I never got to meet her in my whole life
But I'm glad I got to meet my grandfather the coolest, funniest and bestest grandpaa ever the time I spent with him was the best the way he always supported me, the way he used to take me out I'm glad I grew up holding my grandfather's hand he gave the grandmother's love even though she wasn't with us he never let me feel that she is not there. He was the best grandfather and I know if my grandmother would've been there she would've also been the best grandmother .
But still I just wanna know is she and grandpa are they proud of me?
Are they watching over me & my family?



Memories

It is really really really nice to have a good teacher/mentor. Nobody has the kind of impact a good teacher has on you.
I am having online classes right now and I wasn't doing well at the beginning. I was lazy and ignorant, didn't pay attention in class. Plus, I was doing other things alongside (attending camp, writing on my blog) and wasn't able to manage my time efficiently. My marks deteriorated, and I felt extremely resentful. My math teacher, however, had faith in me and told me that I could always improve and get better. It was because of her that I worked extremely hard for my mid-term exam. I remember being really stressed, and nervous and crying over a few problems at 2 in the morning. When I got my math paper results, they were pretty good. I lost just 1 mark over a silly mistake, but my conceptual understanding was great and all my hard work paid off. In class, when we were discussing our doubts and related queries, ma'am didn't exactly acknowledge my marks (or just didn't get the time to talk to me and discuss my progress with me). I felt underappreciated and as if, whatever I had done wasn't enough. I really wanted to know what SHE thought about it and if she felt that I had gotten better, so I texted her, asking exactly that. She didn't write back to me. 

Instead, she called me personally, and told me that she was extremely happy with how well I had done and that I should be celebrating too. She reminded me that I was a star and that she very much appreciates the work I had put into this. She also remembered the time I texted her late, regarding a doubt that could have been solved the next day, but she chose to call me and explain it to me till I was completely clear. 

For those who have wonderful teachers, be grateful,
and for those who don't, know that there are still caring and understanding teachers in the world. 
No other teacher in my school has ever put that much effort into making sure that we are clear with our doubts and concepts, and are happy/stress-free. We are unable to meet, and so, everything happens online. This is already an ordeal for teachers, since they have to put in so much extra effort. But the fact that my teacher took my calls, took time out to clear my doubts, and spared her break between classes, to make me realize my worth and acknowledge my efforts, means a lot. And I will always appreciate that, even later in life.

School

I want to commit suicide, but don’t want to hurt my parents, is there any way? So that I can make it an accident.

Anxiety

OVERWHELMED🥀🙂

3am Thoughts

Sometimes things don't go the way you want it to and it's okay to let go of someone you love. It's okay to cry...it's ok to feel bad
 Cuz sometimes the situation is not on your side. I miss him but yeah...I think the decision was right.

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