I’ve been feeling insecure about my weight a lot lately
I am not being able to swallow solid food anymore

Don't think like that. Every one is beautiful .you are unique. Love yourself 

The best thing to do is to take your mind off your weight and back onto you as a person. And being aware of difficult emotions is also the first step dealing with them. Just remember that you're unique in your own way and there are lots of ppl here supporting you, even me. You're the best❤️

Hey Everyone! How are you all? And How was your day today? Talking about mine it was pretty fucked up but at the end of day everything is fine. Let me know about your day! 

College

I feel Love for modi is it wrong to feel different towards the prime minister !

Life

** insecure**

Insecurity

The journey with friends is marvellous 
One day in ur 60s you will look back and the word ‘cherish’ is put to work.
You will relive it🤗
So don’t forget to make memories with you friends.

Friends

I really need a side opinion on the following topic...

Sometimes... I just want to choke on my own tears and become nothing but a tiny cloud; I want to rip off my own skin and scream my lungs out, after which become eternal nothingness to never ever bother about a thing.
I enjoy feeling broken since then nobody expects anything from me, their pity is an enjoyable excuse for distancing myself.

This year was harsh. I've gone through so much crap combined at the same period of time that I feel like someone's puppet.
My dearest pet friend passed away last month after long days of pain and sickness, I still have hard time coping with it. Yet another unpeaceful death... My other pet got beaten up by a moron that I happen to share roof with - and there's no way to get rid of him yet, I'm serious. And a cherry on top of this shit-cake appeared my self-doubt.

I've been thinking endlessly about meaning of doing anything in life. Like what's the point of even trying if at death bed it's all the same. I do appreciate living and want to keep enjoying it, but whenever another bad day strikes, I simply forget about enjoyment.
My mind goes blank very often. I suddenly stop listening to anyone, get lost in my depressing thoughts.

And... I simply can't express myself at this point. I've been hiding all the thoughts and pain in my heart, expecting people to give me default "ok" answer because they either don't care or don't think it's that serious, just like they always did. Or... They honestly don't know what to tell me.
There's so much stuck on me, I want to cry my soul out, but there's just no privacy in my life. And my friend (that I usually vent to) started acting cold towards me as well, since my "blank state" moments caused me avoid contacting her for weeks. At this point, it's too awkward to chat with her at all.


I seriously want to tell all this my mum, but there's that cruel asshole yelling around and acting like a complete douche. Whenever I get a moment to talk with my mum, he screams about needing her attention for whatever reason, and bam. She's gone for this weekend. Not gonna be able to talk due to her job.
What's even worse, he spent bunch of money that were saved for my birthday for his needs and alcohol-brewing. Now he's drunk for entire week and been both untrusting and twice annoying.

I'm not sure if my current mental state just temporary problem and I should simply "live on". I also would like to know what should I do with all this mess...
Thank you for reading this mess. Excuse the nonsense moments, I really need some sleep.




Frustration

Any chennai or tamil girls here 

Dreams

I am 30 years old, I came from a rural area and have seen so many things in my life till I get successful working in IT Gynt. I have seen all the barrier differences between humans and humans. And learn how to come over from your own created mindset. and compete with other stack holders. 

And the best part was I always trusted myself and always stayed for myself for all the situations.

Anxiety

I have had quite a painful past.
The story is no different than a typical hindi bollywood movie. As a kid my parents struggled to meet ends. I still remember, it was a big deal to spend even ₹20 on things other than basic needs. I also had dark brown skin. Everyone knows how society treats a poor dark brown girl. Never received a fair treatment. Had no friends by my side. Had no social life. I still dont have it. People have been mean.
Although, I have survived and have come a long way but still remember every comment of the people around that i have found as humiliating. I was never accepted and I feel I will never be accepted by anyone. I feel insulted. I have had anxiety issues and panic attacks before. Have taken one year treatment. But it was mainly because I didnt accept my dad's death. I was in depression for 6 years after my dad's death. I felt better after the treatment was completed. But since last few months I have been getting anxiety attacks all over
again. I get flashes of my past out of no where. I get negative thoughts when I dont work. Hence I work 12 14 hours and keep myself busy with office work. I feel empty especially in evenings. I have stopped sharing my feelings to anyone as they have taken advantage of my weaknesses in past. I have stopped trusting people.
My stress level has increased. I know as its has affecting my health and have noticed hormonal changes. I feel I am a strong woman but sometimes I feel like giving up. 

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