ANGELO @coolkid777
Iβve been a mess since 2020. I donβt think most people in my life gets how truly awful this thing is.
Just imagine thinking those impeding doom feelings over and over AND OVER again. Itβs on loop. You donβt know how to get away from your thoughts. You feel like youβre in this cold prison with no airβ¦
Every little body sensation I feel, every little symptoms I feel I tend to make it worse for myself by dramatising it even more. I know itβs not the most healthiest thing to do but somehow this is all that I have been doing for quite some time now.
I have tried some things to help myself. Iβve tried to distract myself by journalling and by even meditating and sure those things are great and all and they do work but then it all comes back all over again somehow and the more you focus on it the more real it will be and this is the thing that pisses me off is that the more you try to not think about it the more you will somehow think about it. I hate having anxiety and how it has taken over my life
It all began with health anxiety and then things just got worse and worse for me itβs not the most easiest thing ever to deal with but Iβm still βcopingβ with it, I guess. But itβs still somehow not enough because anxiety is so sneaky and it can just creep in when you least expect it and this is why Iβm really afraid of anxiety and how it can play those little tricks on you when you least expect it. I donβt know if anybody is relating to this or not but just know that I am here for you. And also if anyone wants to talk. My instagram is mrchad519 letβs chat and be friends. :D