Iβve been a loner, an outcast, worthless, piece of shit, Iβve cut myself, Iβm an alcoholic, a junkie an addict, I hate myself and hurt myself at every chance I get, Iβve never had a bond worth remembering, Iβm a coward, Iβve spoilt every opportunity Iβve had at anything great, Iβm weak, poor, abandoned, scared, isolated, feel like my existence is not worth anything, I have no passion, no friends, no relationship, I am left out of everything and it feels better that way, and I canβt take any of this anymore. I canβt pick my phone to call anyone and tell this, I donβt want to speak to anyone, I donβt ever want to feel this way ever again, I feel sorry for myself, my minds never allowed me to experience anything, Iβve hated everything, Iβve hated myself even though Iβve achieved something, my only way of celebration is getting drunk or getting high and forgetting everything. I feel sorry for myself. I have destroyed myself and everything I have ever known. Can you fucking hear me ? I DONβT EVER WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY EVER AGAIN. YOU OR ANYTHING ELSE NO LONGER HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER ME. I DONβT FUCKING WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY EVER AGAIN. this is how I move on, this is how I keep my first step, this is how I break every barrier, this is how I surpass all limits. This is how I learn to keep calm. This is how I move on.
Hey stranger,
Hang in there. You are one of the braves I believe. Take each day, 1 step at a time. Always remember βThereβs more to life than mere ups and downs, thereβs always a dawn before dusk, courage before failure, and faith before deathβ.
Love yourself for a bit and a bit longer. Because there are some places in the life where you need to go alone, where people leave. Because in the loneliest moment of your life, only YOU- YOU ARE THERE FOR YOURSELF. πππ»