Its the first time i found a platform to share my feelingsā¦i donāt express my feelings to anyoneā¦i love my parents and my friends to the extent that i can sacrifice my life for them but i donāt like to show that to themā¦but may be because of that they think i dont love them enoughā¦but for me i dont want to showoff my love like others doā¦i have been and always will be their for them during their difficult timeā¦i get angry very easilyā¦and even small things can bother me a lotā¦m right now in collegeā¦i have no idea what m doingā¦m not even studyingā¦hardly passingā¦i have started seeing myself as a failureā¦even my parents think i cant do anythingā¦their are times when i have helped my friends to extent that i have been blamed by others and made myself bad in front of themā¦but their are times when i think about all of these things.amd get frustrated and cry at nightā¦at that point of time i donāt remember anyone whom i can call and cry and tell my problemsā¦i have got friends and i know they care for me but i donāt why but when m crying at night i canāt remember anyone whom i can lean toā¦i just wanted to vent my feelings out ā¦thats the only reason why i came here
Bani Singh @banisinghvasir
Honestly, you know, I can relate really well. I used to be the same way when I was younger. I had a hard time expressing my feelings to my family in terms of how much I loved them, I was never the mushy type. But, my relationship with them evolved greatly over time and many shared experiences. And I feel like youāre describing me exactly. I can also get really irritated and bothered by things. College was the same too. However, I knew I was putting in the bare minimum effort so that isnāt something that concerns me. For me, my ray of sunshine and purpose was this website-Now&Me. So, I think maybe thatās the phase youāre at too; trying to figure out where you stand and what you want to do. And trust me, everyone goes through it. So, donāt be hard on yourself, just keep looking for what interests you and youāll get there. Sometimes it just feels like thereās an absence of passion and purpose and maybe youāre going through it. But also, believe me when I say, āseek and ye shall find.ā Sending love and strength to you, youāll get through this.
I am really proud of you for coming to terms with these feelings and expressing them here on nowandme. It feels so great after letting it all out. I am sure you will get through this. Wishing you all the strength in the world.
