Its the first time i found a platform to share my feelings…i don’t express my feelings to anyone…i love my parents and my friends to the extent that i can sacrifice my life for them but i don’t like to show that to them…but may be because of that they think i dont love them enough…but for me i dont want to showoff my love like others do…i have been and always will be their for them during their difficult time…i get angry very easily…and even small things can bother me a lot…m right now in college…i have no idea what m doing…m not even studying…hardly passing…i have started seeing myself as a failure…even my parents think i cant do anything…their are times when i have helped my friends to extent that i have been blamed by others and made myself bad in front of them…but their are times when i think about all of these things.amd get frustrated and cry at night…at that point of time i don’t remember anyone whom i can call and cry and tell my problems…i have got friends and i know they care for me but i don’t why but when m crying at night i can’t remember anyone whom i can lean to…i just wanted to vent my feelings out …thats the only reason why i came here
Bani Singh @banisinghvasir
Honestly, you know, I can relate really well. I used to be the same way when I was younger. I had a hard time expressing my feelings to my family in terms of how much I loved them, I was never the mushy type. But, my relationship with them evolved greatly over time and many shared experiences. And I feel like you’re describing me exactly. I can also get really irritated and bothered by things. College was the same too. However, I knew I was putting in the bare minimum effort so that isn’t something that concerns me. For me, my ray of sunshine and purpose was this website-Now&Me. So, I think maybe that’s the phase you’re at too; trying to figure out where you stand and what you want to do. And trust me, everyone goes through it. So, don’t be hard on yourself, just keep looking for what interests you and you’ll get there. Sometimes it just feels like there’s an absence of passion and purpose and maybe you’re going through it. But also, believe me when I say, ‘seek and ye shall find.’ Sending love and strength to you, you’ll get through this.
I am really proud of you for coming to terms with these feelings and expressing them here on nowandme. It feels so great after letting it all out. I am sure you will get through this. Wishing you all the strength in the world.
