It's sad that I cant feel any other person as close as him. Only after we stopped talking I realised that I only had him as a close friend to me. Rest all are.. I dont even talk with anyone except him. 

Now that even he is gone, I feel so lonely..

I didn't date him. He was my best friend


Anxiety

Ego is a block between us and God. It is a definite block and a very solid block. Without elimination of the ego the question of meeting the Lord doesn’t arise at all, because God is love.… Love means that that the other one exists – you don’t exist at all.

Self Love

Yarr 

3am Thoughts

Rule no. 1 ---IF YOU DON'T WANT A SARCASTIC ANSWER, DON'T ASK A STUPID QUESTION

I Let Someone In, Ignoring All The Red Flags… & Here I Am AGAIN! Heartbroken! More Tears. I Hate This! 

Breakup

Hi there reader! 
I hope you’re having a good day^^  
Hang in there, when things get tough you may feel like you’re on your very own, but I’m here for you and you’re not alone. Always try to take things day by day, and anytime you need me, I’ll always be here.
See you soon!❤️😀

PS: If anyone ever needs to talk to someone about what's on their mind at anytime, talk to me. I'll be here to try and understand you as much as I can so I can help you. You're not alone, bear this in mind.

Supportive

I feel like cutting and killing me self rn i need HELP!!!!!!!!!


Depression

Hello any one from Vijayawada 

Happy

I am stressed about my career. I ruined my JEE as well as my boards. My parents were soo mad at me and I was devastated. My brother talked us out of it and told me to switch career with whatever I like. I wanted to persue BMM but I couldn't get admission in any good college and that would have been total waste of my career. So I went for BMS. Again the admission portal was closed and I was so stressed. My parents were already mad at me for not being able to clear JEE like my brother did. He graduated from SPIT, andheri. He was also offered a seat in BITS mesra. So basically I was a complete failure in front of my dad. So I had two choices at that point, to take admission in some shit af college ( why am I even calling it a college? Its merely a 3 floor building with no campus, no good teacher, not even a canteen and with all the local students who take admission there just for the sake of getting a college degree as its affiliated to Mumbai University) and the other option was to stay home for an year, again prepare for JEE, face my parents mocking and ruin my life all over again. So yes basically I chose the former. My brother supported me, said score good marks in sem 1 and 2 and we'll transfer you to another MU affiliated college. I was happy, in all the chaos that was my 1 hope. Life f****d me all over again when we faced the outbreak of this pandemic! Exams were cancelled so I just couldn't take admission elsewhere! All my hopes shattered. In college I made few friends, but no one is interested in studies. I had no commerce background, I managed to study the basics of accounting and no one would believe this, but yeah i am the smartest one is my class! The teachers around couldn't even speak proper English. They give us all the questions before exam and that's it. Their work is done. But what's more horrible is even after having the question bank, no one managed to score even an 8 sgpa, except for me and yes a couple of other students. Urgh!! I am suffering from imposter syndrome, and things like this makes it even worse. Now I don't know whether I actually managed to score such great marks or is it because of the stupid faculty who's distributing marks for free. None of my friends are passionate about studies, career. Like you know how they say, hang out with smart people and people who talk about ideas, where the f*** do I find these people? I really wanna know. Like I have a big goal, I need to be around people who share the same goal, who motivates me when I am down, but not 1 person in my friends circle is like this! Who am I supposed to share all my feelings and ideas with? And what sucks the most is when you see people who were always behind you in school, are now doing exceptionally well and getting admission in great college while you take admission in a college which is way way worse than even the school you passed out from. I always wanted to be an IAS officer. It was a childhood dream. So during the whole 2020 I started my preparation. My brother however was not happy with my decision, asked me to drop this thought and get my a** back in corporate sector. He said its great that I am thinking about something like this, but i should not do anything to fail again in life. This would make me feel useless and ofcourse piss off my dad even more. I was myself in doubt because I knew its very hard, and I couldn't clear it in first attempt and I needed something to pull me up, not push me further down from where I already am. So I listened to what he said and now I am preparing for CFA. Also looking for some internships. But some how i don't really know what i want to do in life. I was not sure about upsc, I am not sure about cfa either. Like people already know what they are good at and they are following their passion. But is it just me who absolutely has no clue what to do in life or what are is my passion? I enjoy painting and stuff, but I can't do one by myself, so like what's my strength? Boy am I clueless! This has caused a lot of stress to me. I don't know if I could ever get the job or the company I want to because of my academic background. I don't want to be a failure. I am s*** scared each passing day of my life. Have I really ruined my life? Is there really no hope?
To anyone who actually read this, may god really bless you for listening to my whining. 

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