it's really hard to ignore him but still he's not replied so it's fine stay calm just for few days. 

Lonely

So this is about the guy that I have been dating for the past 1 and a half year .Its a long distance relationship so we have met only thrice in this span of time . Everything was going good or so I thought it was untill I started to realize that he's hardly emotionally available for me . I was pretty  sure that he's my ride or die but now his lack of affection towards me makes me wonder if he has the same amount of love that I have for him. Infact he sometimes make these very confusing statements when I ask him about how  are we gonna manage the relationship when he will go further away for studies like " just go with the flow " , "anyway we aren't getting married so stop thinking about it and enjoy the present ". I mean obviously I know we are just in our 20s and no one's thinking about getting married and stuff but don't u think it's really absurd way stating it to the girl you are dating at that point . It like putting a time limit on the relationship like we already have a dead end infront of us and it makes me feel like he has taken me for granted .  I just don't know what to do .I genuinely love him but i don't see the same energy from his side . It has left me in a very confusing state .I feel trapped emotionally.
Guys i would really appreciate some suggestions on what I can do .

Love

Just in my feelings… 

I finally broke the cycle of constant misery.. at first I told myself “ i mentally checked out a long time ago” which is why I finally had the courage to leave… this is not my first heart break.. but this is my first misery… I will never be able to understand what I really want but I know that this is whats best. Why am I dreading this decision all of a sudden? Why cant I just make it easier on myself.. I miss our memories .. its always the dang memories. I want to get over this soon .. what if I made the wrong decision? No… putting myself first is not the wrong decision. What if I never get him back ? .. then he wasnt mine to keep… Im so lost. Im so upset at myself. Im so .. disappointed. Disappointed in myself? Or you…. 

Anxiety

Our dating life was going pretty good
I never wanted something casual, I had told him earlier too and it’s was mutual feeling 
Even he wanted something permanent which leads to marriage 

Now my family is searching for alliances for me but I can’t tell my dad about him , but my mum and rest of my family know 

But the problem is he haven’t told anyone in his family … about us , his family don’t even know I exist….i told couple of times pls talk 
He is like I can tell em but after I tell them they will keep asking me everytime I go out or anything and involve me , start doubting him on everything and then we can spend enough time with each other 
They will get us married this year only and all of it 

So now I strtd thinking maybe he really don’t wanna tell his parents about us and giving reasons 
Sometimes he give me reasons as you belong to high class family , I’m kinda upper middle class will your family agree to this relationship even after me telling 1000 times that my family will never see all that , they just want happiness 

But he overthinks and telme maybe your family won’t but what if your relatives and everyone taunt and compare to other marriages happend in your family 

Another reason I’m doctor he is engineer why would someone let doctor get married to engineer but there is no prob in that too 

I don’t want should I even do 

Relationships

ughhhhhh this man just texted me the sweetest thing ever even though i told myself i wouldn’t go back to him for the millionth time 😩😩😩  

I've been in a 4 year relationship with my boyfriend (ex now)...in 2016 ......now I'm 18 but it's been really hard for me to forget or move on .... hoping I'll feel better after sharing here...

When I was 14 I met him he was 18.....I have no idea what his intentions were at the time.....I fell in love with him really hard.....this was my first relationship.....we started talking through social media...my parents didn't allow me to have boyfriends or friends that were boys...so we couldn't meet....one day my parents went to another state...so he suggested that he came to my house and I was home alone....that was the first time we met....at first everything was going okay....then he suddenly started getting really close...I was really uncomfortable but I didn't want to hurt his feelings...he tried to kiss me...I tried to get away but he blocked me ....he still kissed...I told him I wasn't ready ...coz this was my first time....he didn't really care and then tried to put his hand under my shirt I stopped him and he let go....I didn't say anything after that and then he left.....he texted me as if everything was normal....I thought I could trust him and hoped he wouldn't do it again....I was wrong ...everytime I met him he tried to kiss me...and touching me even when I tried to push him away..but I still couldn't leave him bcoz it hurt me alot...he knew that ...he cheated on me and then his friend told me...I believed the lies he told me bcoz I didn't want to believe that he would actually cheat on me...I used to be really dumb...ik that.. looking back now.....I stayed with him...I tried to let him kiss me or touch or whatever...but I couldn't...he would get angry and say that I didn't really love him...he would flirt with so many girls of my age only...now that I think about it ..y was he only talking to 14 years olds ..the girl he cheated on me with was my age too....

Next year he broke up with me...he didn't even bother to tell me he told his cousin to telme .....I fucking broke...the last time we had met b4 the break up he tried to put his hand down there then he realised I wouldn't allow him so he stopped....I was hurt and so lost...I went crazy...how could he .....

When I turned 15 he wished me happy birthday...I was getting better..and then he had to msg me ....I went back to him ...I forgave him ....and again he hurts me....the first day we meet after the break up....I fall asleep next to him...woke up with his hand in my pants ...I push him away but he holds me then and then tried to...after all that...he says he's sorry...I forgive him again...I didn't wanna lose him again...but it continued everytime we met .....I forgave him everytime...he started controlling me...told me what to do...what to wear...who to talk to...who to stop talking to...took control of all my social media..and told me he would leave me if I don't listen...so many times I had to beg him to stay when I didn't obey....

On our 2nd year anniversary....he pushed it too far and mad me jerk him off and tried to have sex with me...I didn't want to....he had already planned all of it and even had condoms ready ...he didn't even give me a choice....I told him enough but he didn't stop ..then my sister banged my door so he stopped ...she unknowingly saved me sort of....but I was dumb enough not to leave then and there....next time he did it..he didn't even care ...I pushed ..I told him to wait...I would try to get away but no use....I just wanted to spend time with him...but he only wanted that...this continued for till feb 2020....when I tried to explain to him what I was feeling he just ignored ...I told him that the only reason I had sex with him was because of him and not because I wanted and that I wanted him to stop now bcoz I couldn't take it anymore he was like "so?" So??...that was all....he didn't even stop..and it was too hard for me to leave him ...I started cutting ...and when he found out he left me standing there...he was mean to me...when he came back he held my hands so hard it hurt.....after that he became slightly violent ...and started hitting me not a lot....just a few slaps here and there....I saw how other ppl were treated in their relationships...I tried to tell him how I wanted to be treated ....and when I told him I would leave...he told me he would change...he would be good for one day and then start again....he would force me to send nudes and when I didn't the next time we met he would forcefully take my pics and videos and say that if I had just sent then this wouldn't be necessary....I left him telling that I wanted a break bcoz of my exams ....and then I realised I was much more at peace without him....

To this day he still begs me to go back... sometimes when I feel weak ..I wanna go back bcoz of the love I thought we had....but I realised only I really loved him ...he was using me....it was his intentions from the beginning..who I had fallen in love with wasn't there anymore that was just pretend....his true colors were revealed later.... ironically he was the only person I felt safe with....or comfort ...but scared too....now I'm in another state....he found out where I am...I still get scared that he may show up

Harassment

Y'all I'm feeling really anxious, cause the guy that I don't even like that much isn't replying to me. Like ik he will but still I'M GETTING SO MUCH ANXIOUS ABOUT IT. I know that I'm not that into him and he's not that great. Why is happening to me lol. I can't even concentrate on my studies. 
The last time this happened to me with another guy, we ended up dating which was veryy bad. Breaking up with him was like reliving my life. Also I'm an overthinker so small things affect me a lot. 
This is so weird so I know I deserve so much better and I know I don't even like him, but still just so badly want his attention and his name to pop up in my notifications again :(

Ps- sorry for the bad writing structure, I'm ready anxious. 

Crush

I think I get over him but everytime I look into those beautiful eyes I go on a roller coaster ride that leads to outer space


Overwhelmed-Confused-Lonely

I am with someone for the past 6 months now - dating/relationship sorts and stuff. However he says we are “exclusive” and not in a relationship (basically not wanting to give his commitment) and needs time come to the commitment phase. Is 6 months not enough to not be sure of someone? He was also the one to suggest of getting together and see how things go. 

I have known this person for 2+ years now, platonically and he really  is special to me. I am just out here thinking and thinking over this, not realising how long does this have to go in for? Is he just wasting my time and is this his way of getting what he wants by keeping me all to himself without  any commitments from his side? Am i being paranoid? And stop thinking and just go with the flow. Has anyone dealt with something similar?

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