It's okey to avoid those who do not know how to appreciate you..
It's okey to ignore those who do not know how to cherish you..
It's okey to walk away from those who do not know how to love you..

It's okey to walk away..

Breakup

My friend is getting attached and I'm invited and I'm so happy for her. 

I always always dress nicely. She keeps asking where I bring my clothes from etc. Yet she kept saying, dress nicely and come. She also said, "Meharbani karke ache se ready hoke aana". This stuck in my head. What did she mean?

Am I stupid and overthinking? Did she say it normally or jokingly or was pointing at something? Should I discuss this with her or am I crazy?

Friends

I am so sensitive and so selfless I am constantly giving and giving to the point where I am called “ stupid and native” by my family and so called friends. I always being used for money and being lied to and manipulated…just so sick of life , I feel alone all the time and lock myself in a room I feel like no one understands me like ever 

Emotional Abuse

The nature of the mind is to interpret nonessentials essential. The mind creates artificial needs, believing it cannot live without them. In this way we carry a great burden of attachments throughout our life. Attachment is itself a great burden on our minds. We may never understand the extent of the burden till, like my books or the earwax, we’re free of it. But if we find joy within, we can live a simple life, free of endless complications.

3am Thoughts

How to start new?
When you have already left something out there back....when you already have so much to do it can decide how to do?how to start again.....
First you had a messed up world and now you have an empty word. you are isolated from the world alone with 0 productivity. lying on bed, imagining your future but no progress. The night is full of guilt and the morning is full of motivation but still you can't do anything...
Might be my motivation be 1% and laziness be 99%....
I don't know how to deal with this feeling of helplessness, feeling of good for nothing......
I know time runs out, world doesn't stop for anybody.. heard lot of motivation with all the work that should be needed to get the spark.
I don't know what is stopping me to do my duties my work my studies...
I love to be alone but sometimes this loneliness hurts me... Question myself about my existence the worth of living?
Everyone has a bad past but no one stops to live, no one stops the world, doesn't stops but why I am affected by it so hard? Whenever I just remember it makes me anxious.. how it person are incident can affect a person's whole life...
Every experience teach us a lesson to face the world to live. But my experience taught me to hate myself and stop believing in myself. How can a man be so manipulative and control you and your brain. Do I pretend to be strong but I am drink inside I am heartbroken. I am just running away from my problems unconsciously just don't want to face them want to stay away.
But the reality check, awareness questions existence like I don't have a purpose to live. My family with the high expectations waiting for my good future. May I don't have a future unless and until I imagine it. I am so comfortable in imagine that always daydream about it, Sitting in my bedroom. I am so comfortable in my my dream world I don't want to come out and stay there like I don't have a real life. And due to this lockdown it made it so easy for my brain to just imagine without saying anything in this one room. My family with their own issues ,me with the new issue and my life turned out to be a big issue.
sitting in 1 room scrolling the Instagram day and night what say web series and movies. Finding myself worthless..
In this statement true world I can't even this was mine s**t with anyone.
over thinking can give you both solutions or problems. Pick my case it's only problems.....


Overthinking

Life feel dull at time when you have no friends.Its just empty..

How to get over heartbreak from best friend 😶ok byy 
Cause we can't

Pass aaiyee ki hum nahi,
Aayenge baar baar..
Baahein gale me daalke,
Hum roo lein zaar zaar...
 :')

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