It's my dream to work for Boston Dynamics. I have this excellent  idea for a convertible arachnidal spider robot. It will be much better than those stupid quadrupeds they make. 

3am Thoughts

october is next week ? times flies by when your life is falling apart

Time

It's raining and mein hall mein baitke tv pe khol de baahein gaane sunrahi hu! Little things 💙

a girl knows that I love her so she chose to be a prostitute because she knew that anyhow she will convince me to marry her and we know that in love we bypass the lover's flaws. So, she is living now a lustful life in her young age but she is not talking to me for years because she wants me to become a successful person so that she can marry me. Her entire family, relatives, everyone close to her knows that I love her and she and her friend, society told my parents that I love her. What should I do? Should I leave her for her stupid idea? Is it my fault that if I leave her for her stupid idea after promising to marry her in the church? Even though a male prostitute knows her, she is dating someone else in front of me...I don't have any problem but if someone else (except her) opposes the rules and regulations against me, I take action.
I consulted a psychologists and they told me to walk away from her and move ahead in life. 

Love

I don’t know why I keep thinking about death lately.  It’s been going on for 3 weeks now. Is this normal?

Mental Health

Anyone awake wanna talk 
Can’t sleep 

Hey, super bored 🙈 anyone wanna talk about anything? I could be all ears 🤗

Compassion

yk that moment in your life when you realize you’ll always be in that one persons shadow… god it hurts so much when that one person is your best friend. i’ve said it before and ill say it again shes stunning, everyone compliments her and no one bats an eye at me. i put in so much effort and people just always pick her, looks wise or just friends wise. we got in an argument today and she used my loneliness as an insult against me, it hurt so much but we both said stuff we don’t mean so i don’t hold it against her. But like damn. I opened up to her about how its so hard for me to make friends and shit and she said she’d help me out but it feels bad knowing i need help in the first place. When we were arguing, she said smth abt me having no friends and then said her plans for the weeknd and asked for mine. Just stood there hiding my pain cuz i genuinely had no plans, and the fact her plans were w our friends hurts even more. They’d all pick her over me, they’re just so much closer to her no matter how hard i try. Genuinely no one cares abt me lol. im just tired of constantly comparing myself to her, sometimes i feel like a bitch for wanting to hate her but i literally cannot handle it anymore. shes my closest friend, she honestly has it all, looks, friends, a boyfriend, happy. i want that:(…

Jealous

Even tho there are many people I am around throughout the day, at office or at my pg but this unbearing pain of loneliness is still there and with the time passing by it's getting so intense , that it becomes suffocating to the level I wanna scream but can't than crying and just crying and let the ocean of tears flow and that soothe the pai. Alok for the moment till the next one

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