It’s just 1 week of my college and I am feeling when will my 5 year course end. Is this thought normal ? The main reason why I’m feeling this is because I’m homesick and I’m finding hard to focus. Please help how I should deal with it ?

Ha. But lag raha hai kab katam hoga 5 saal… aur filhaal toh sab aisa lag raha hai jaise kuch bhi karna mushkil hai

Ha, 1 week aisa lag raha hai jaise 1 saal ka padhaya hai 

Ha wahi karuga.. ab sem break July main milega 🥲

😭😓25 and still can't figure out what I want to do regarding career

Confusion

When your feeling suicidal again what do you do to help?

Suicidal Ideation

I find myself talking to myself almost all the time these days. Am I going crazy?
Can someone relate?

Life

This is a long message 😅

So my boyfriend and I were very serious and were moving towards the discussion of marriage, and there was some fiction and we had a huge argument on 3rd September and decided to end it, usually we would mend thing the same day but since things were getting serious between us and we both got hurt, so we didn’t speak for 3 days, and after that we tried to talk but would end up fighting more and not resolve it, both our ego clashed and even the anxious about such a big decision. We were very close and extremely in love
I know it has impacted him as much as me, after what all happened he called me and told me that he kept stalking me on social media (same as me)  i saw him swapping between apps looking where i was, yes i was online mostly but not talking to anyone but to see if he was, just to feel his presence. He thought i started talking to someone, even messaged me twice that have I started talking to someone? I told no, but yes I was constantly online, i knew it was bothering him. 
So Sunday (11th September) he didn’t come online as much, i felt something was fishy and had a feeling that he might be using tinder to distract himself (we also met on tinder btw 2 years ago, we both were using it for timepass in pandemic and found each other), so i installed it too, made a fake account and put my location as his city and found him immediately there, he had swiped right on me so i messaged him, he sensed that distance was too much (so he said are you messaging from space and then he checked the distance and found out which city i was on) so called out that if i was messaging from a different city, so he asked me if i was looking for someone here because even he installed it initially to look for someone, he said he someone he cares for might be using this to move on, i tried to ask him few more things like are you new here and he said yes new right now but he used the account 2 years back also, then he didn’t say much and said that i should continue with the other matches because he was going through something and will probably leave in a few hours. Then I came out and said it was me and how could he be on tinder, he got shocked and started saying he made the account to stalk me because he thought i was moving on with someone and was using tinder, he said he bought the premium version to change the location and look for me (he showed me the purchase) and he had put around 7 photos of him all of which either i took of him or i was with him when he took (he even cropped me out of one photo) and even his bio was everything that we did together like, he said he loves to drive and he can talk about imdb top 100 movies, poem or classic tv shows and he also added a line of a song which i liked and made swipe right on him when we matched on tinder 2 years ago (all these things we did together) I got so furious at him that how could he be here, to his justification that he came to find me but he had a full fledged account with photos and bio to which he said it was all that we did together so he said he thought that if i was also here and see him, id feel bad and message him to fix things (he said he made the account 2 days ago and kept deleting it, first time he said he made a fake account too and he said he swiped right only on fake accounts to see if it was me) we had huge argument and he kept saying he was there just to find me, he said he is in a very bad state because of what all was happening between us and he admitted that if he found out that i was moving on then he was also going to do the same, but he kept saying that right now he was there just to find me (said he could have blocked my number there if i didnt want me to see him) I believe he made the account to check for me, but that time when i found him, he was not my city location, because he was surprised to find someone from so far, I know he was not, but he does not admit to it!

I understand that he was very sad and depressed, he also hadn’t slept in 5 days, but seeing him on tinder like that has really shaken me, he deleted the account immediately and also deleted all his social media account (he did on his own, saying the he kept stalking me and it was impacting him too much), I feel replaceable finding him there but a side of me thinks maybe it was not wrong, he was depressed and didn’t know what to do, don’t know what is right :(

Relationships

So I don’t it is the right platform or not but i just had to let it out , idk what is happening with me i am getting out of my control my needs are controlling my actions . Today i was almost going to cheat my boyfriend with my bestfriend . My boyfriend due to some reasons cannot meet me like we haven’t met from 2-3 months now and we barely can talk because he doesn’t have aa phone . So i am losing my control i have some sexual needs which are growing and I don’t know how to control it , if I don’t control them it will get me in trouble because i will not be able to face myself after that . I am a girl with high value in life and if i loose it because of my stupidity i would not be able to forgive myself and i will harm myself . So idk it’s so fucking tough . 

Cheating

hey do you ever love this guy but he won't love you back and that is the most hurting feeling.

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