Itās hardā¦life seems really hard for me and Iām well aware of the fact that people have gone through more hard and rough times than me and have got themselves back together and kinda like picked themselves up and became successfulā¦but no matter how hard Iām trying Iām just not able to reach outā¦I try to wake up early but I failā¦I try to make a to do list and I failā¦ itās like a deadly nightmareā¦
I have too many backlogs from my class and my school just gave us tones of workā¦ itās like they expect us to be robotsā¦like they told us to complete our Notebooks,Do some sort of project, gave us Holidays HW and top of it complete all the Practical Notebooksā¦
And here I amā¦I have too many Backlogs from my class and itās sooo exhausting that I donāt wish to sit and attend the class at allā¦and so I have too many Backlogsā¦also I have been performing badly in my testsā¦all this Sh#t is just making my life a hellā¦and Iāve been losing sleepā¦I lost all my appetiteā¦I just feel that Iām mentally and physically exhaustedā¦my bad mental health status have actually made me sick for a few weeks ā¦and believe it or not I was an A grade student last yearā¦I scored 94.8% in my 10th boards and this makes it the worstā¦
This year I decided to give myself a little time so that I just donāt immerse myself completely into studies because for the past few years l never went anywhere and just kept on studying even on holidaysā¦but I am just very unluckyā¦I decided to visit some place far after 10th but the pandemic hitā¦and I just feel like I actually wasted every moment that I hadā¦
So like I decided to do some self care but in the end I just cannotā¦I feel useless and the worstā¦maybe I shouldāve just been the way I was so that I wouldnāt have had so many Backlogsā¦now I donāt even know what Iām writingā¦this year was really difficult and i just feel like the next year would be more difficultā¦
Ik you wouldnāt read this much but I appreciate you came this farā¦ thank youā¦
Ayna Syed @ayna
Heyā¦itās okay, youāll get through itā¦
Iknw itās hard itās was same with me sometime back but after sometime everything will be back to normalā¦
Dear Anonymous,
I know you going through hard time.
Firstly pls do breathing activity before reading thrice. Inhale deeply and exhale slowly.
Now I would like to tell you that your biggest achievement in 2020 is that you survived and you reached here.Rest everything or bonus or just nothing.So give a pat on your back and hold on. I want you to know that you are just amazing , you managed 2020.
Now its good that you have tried self care activity.
But I am going give you more self care activity.
1 Self care is also being kind and gentle towards yourself. Amd not being hard on yourself So pls be kind with yourself.
2 Self care is also appreciating yourself for your efforts. Appreciate yourself for all your help.
3 Self care is embracing imperfections . Its okay if things doesnāt go as per schedule. We have taught in school that we always learn from failure and imperfections. So donāt strive for perfection. Trust me your efforts wonāt go vain and will be useful to you henceforth.
4 No body manages to complete to do list . Even i donāt . But the idea is to improve little bit better than before.
5 If you failed to be consistent in your early morning routinesā¦ Dong panic. It takes time. Try and try till you succeed. The day you couldnā manage your morning routine and get panic. Just play your favorite game and relax. But get back and try again.
Self care not something we can learn and implement quickly. It needs lot of investment. Keep investing because its worth.
I feel the fact that you asked advice here is also self care activity. So you should be proud of your self.
Regarding studies, donāt think anything about past.
Now onwards try to stay commited to studies without any pressure and expectationsā¦ Just try to stay committed . Donāt think much.
Take care
Cheersš
Liv, we all have felt the same at some point, I feel for u guys and school with the covid pandemic, u r not useless, trust me, someone who has failed many times and many people, u need to remember to remain true to u, whatever that may be, and keep on keeping on, in the big aspect of life, it is to live, and be the best you u can be,
