Its crushing to miss someone who's at your arm's length but can't tell them you do.. 

ik it's hard but time heals everything and you'll be fine one day. If you wanna talk, you are free to connect with me.

Love

Yha sirf ldkio ko hi help milti h kya

Confusion

So much relationship advices here... Can we just relax and be random!

3am Thoughts

i am struggling with anxiety, i feel  anxious around people, so much so that i start to pick the skin aournd my nails and bite my lips until they bleed.  I also tend to overeat/ binge eat when feel stressed and anxious.I have negative body image and avoid going out, mostly because people judge and i hate when being judged. I only feel safe and relax when I am alone and there’s no one home. it’s negatively impacting my life. What should i do.😣 

Anxiety

It's been 445 days since I wrote my last journal and of course, so much stuff happened so I got my girl outfit I don't remember If I mentioned it in the previous 7 journals but yea I got a pink skirt and a hoodie which should've been oversized but the sleeves are short :D but anyway soo I felt really happy and danced the 1st day with it but the thigh highs got dirty and I trusted my mom to wash them and of course, she fucked them up now they have like black circles around but at least they look good on camera which is good enough for me UwU so more forward 7 months into my ship with "nyanners"(he was a stan) I broke up with him and he turned gay and then gave me a pic of him wow just when we broke up how nice but ey at least I am glad we broke up because he looks ugly unu -w- then I got pissed at all man and did a whole list why man are terrible then female's and I turned out transbian(lesbian) and now I got a girlfriend that I am going to visit this April oh and here are the exciting news *drum rolls* my mom agreed to take me to endocrinologist  but anyway I found my goal I want to be a web developer I want to learn JavaScript, HTML, CSS :3 I got my plans I want to go to the United Kingdom and study there and get my computer science even if life says fuck you in my face I'll keep trying and trying till I get my job and succeed because ... that's what true heroes do right *sighs*    BUT OFC here we go *stretches* oh girl this is going to be a long one  ofc with good news there is bad news as well so there Is this meme going around with a cat named Ankha which is an animal crossing or whatever the fuck I don't care Egyptian cat that they made a meme of on TikTok and no one told me what is it for every time I asked they were like "if you know you know if you don't you don't" and ofc curious shinni had to research it one day and I found it basically she was dimming a guy and I had to open PornHub to see it and I got dysphoric because my pp went up -w- and people even laughed at me for venting    Honestly, I am disappointed by humanity....

Boyfriend

I want to have an online boyfriend who can take care of me, with whom I can open up about all my sadness, and who is there to listen and not getting into a real toxic relationship, just a partner who is more like a best friend😭

Please don't settle for temporary pleasures. You're worth more than a late night text & an uncommitted soul.

I fell in love with my bestfriend. But I am not sure how he feels about me. He sends me mix signals. I have confessed my feelings for him a month ago. He said we can’t be together but he continues being sweet with me and wants me to be by his side. We are still close friends but I get hurt everytime he is with other girls. Tell me what to do. 

Does everyone try really hard to live up to their parents’ expectations? 

I have this constant nagging fear inside me that I’ll never be good enough, especially for my parents.

I get pretty good grades, I’m well behaved, I have a good impression on almost everyone including my teachers. But I feel like my parents are always expecting more. I just can’t do anything more. I try so hard to live up to their expectations but the more I try, the more distant and lonely feel.

They want me to become a doctor. I honestly haven’t decided what I want to be yet. I still have about 2 more years before I graduate school. Because they wanted me to become a doctor, I had to choose the science stream. I didn’t really have a problem with that because I liked science. What I didn’t like was math, and my parents wanted me to choose math as well because it’ll look good on my applications.

School’s really tough right now and I feel so exhausted, both physically and mentally.

My parents never miss a moment where they can throw the words “future doctor”.
It makes me feel really uneasy.

Being a doctor is wonderful. But I don’t know if that’s what I really want to become. I’m now trapped in this cage where my parents’ expectations keep piling up and I can’t do anything about it.

I don’t have the courage to talk to them about it either. I feel like I’ll disappoint them if I do.

What do I do?
🥺😢

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