It's been months that I have lost the connection with my relatives...but for some reason I don't regret and never wanna regret it....to stay away from them and not visit them was the best decision I ever took in my life....

Life

Where are you guys coming from? May i know?

Travel

Can anyone suggest me from where I can watch anime???

Coming Out

do you ever wonder what people think about like, genuinely?

and then you ask them but it doesn't seem like the complete truth-

3am Thoughts

Enjoy every moment 😉..❤️

Affirmations

It is my birthday today. I’m 23. My nani had 2 children when she was my age, I still am children. I feel no older. I’ve spent the last 2 years celebrating my birthday with very few people because I really felt the people around me expected me to do that and that’s not me at all. I have always had big birthday parties and I want them forever. It is a very important day for everyone around me because without me their lives would be nothing. I’m also very beautiful,  beautiful things need to celebrated. I also have put up with a looooot of bs in my last 3 birthdays, so this year I sent out a 1000 word instruction manual before I sent the invites out, so people best behave themselves. No denim, no dirty nails, no troussers, no unsolicited plus ones, no BO, no leaving early and the list goes on for a bit. I’m really owning my Leo energy this year. It is my day and nobody can decide whether it is important enough for me, only I get to decide that. 

Other

recently I invited 2 of the people I hang out with at school and I have been hanging out with them for about 3 years but covid happen and I didn't talk to them then so I changed a lot and so did they but so I invited them over after school in one day I just realized that the only reason I invited them was that I didn't want to be alone this summer I wanted to ride my bike with friends I wanted to play video games with them I want to be honest with them but I don't have anyone for that. The two friends I invited are mean I think. They say things like I wasn't pretty when I was younger and I know that sounds so pathetic to not like yourself for not being pretty but Idk. They also take my things without asking one time they took my phone without me knowing And said things that make me uncomfortable, and I know what most people might say that I should walk away from them right? but no the reason why  I can't is that I'm still in middle school and we have 100 middle schoolers in my grade so I also wouldn't even have anyone else to ask if they can tell me what happened if I was absent. doesn't help that I have social anxiety and that I like to be alone sometimes but I see all these people hanging out with there friends that get them the one's that you are comfortable with like my older brother has those people, And he is the only person I play video games with like I want a friend like him. Back to my first topic I only invited them over so that I can hang out with people this summer but by the way they make me feel I don't know if I want to like I want to tell them I don't like the way they make me feel but I don't want to hurt them.

Anxiety

Debating if I wanna face the consequences of spamming my bf's email while he's in a meeting......


Long Distance Relationship

Overthinking 😩😩😩, how can I stop it? Cause it's ruining me and my life. Everytime it takes me one step closer to dead end. I keep thinking about a girl(who's really good with me shares her life with me, day in and day out) we are friends (good one) but I think(most probably) i have developed feelings for her, but she considers me someone she can can trust wholeheartedly and i don't want to break that trust. She likes someone else who's treating her as kindof backup option and he is my friend too😩. Consoled her and made her clear her mind and she is happy now that she doesn't need that person anymore. 
She can like someone else but not me. How do I change that image ? How can I make her think about me too without disrupting our friendship 😩

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