Its been 4 years since i left everything behind and moved to Vancouver.. haven’t visited my family even once… have no real friends here..Career wise I’m where i wanted to be… but feel Isolated… every damn day.. try to keep myself occupied but today even that didn’t work

There is nothing worse than feeling like a ghost 😔 I’m here to listen any time. I admire your bravery to start anew 

Hey. I live in canada too bro. If u wanna talk than you can connect wid me bro. 

I know we have faced many challenges together, but we have only strengthened our bond. You complete me, support me, and make me happy. You are the love of my life, and I cannot imagine a single day without you by my side. I promise to always show you how much I adore and treasure you. I love you.....💙

3am Thoughts

Udta fire dill 
smbhlna jane na

I just wanna ask God - 
You put hike in my life. I barely cared about him until one day I started caring too much. And then you pulled him out. No warning, no nothing. I was devastated. I cried for a month. It's not Like there was anything between us but I really wanted it to be so hurt me a lot more when you pulled him out. I cried, I sobbed, I looked for him whenever I had the chance to, and then one day when I was tired of waiting I gave up. I gave up, I unsent my friend request, blocked him even and I felt really light because in my mind, I claimed that I no longer have to worry because I made a move but he rejected it. And then the exact same evening, I saw him there and my heart dropped. I was so happy, shocked, annoyed, sad, hurt, angry, confused to see him. He accepted my request again. He is so unpredictable. I just don't know. So my question to God is....what do you want from me? I keep fantasizing about him but I am farthest from reality. Why and what and how and what.

Crush

We suffer more in imagination than in reality 🤨

Trying to overcome heartbreak

Lonely

How do I bring things up to my counselor. All 3 of my brothers have ADHD and I have many of the same traits and symptoms and think I have it. Plus one of my brother's has Aspergers and I have many traits that align with this as well. I don't know how to bring these up to my counselor about getting help getting either diagnosed or considered for an evaluation. I feel like suggesting I have either will come off weird. Help. 

ADHD

 Back in Jan. 1991, my mother who had breast cancer that ended up being a brain tumor. My father a me took care of my mother at home for about 9 or so months. She then went into the hospital. I slept in her room for a month or so. That whole time I was totally isolated. No visitors or phone calls for a year. Then in march of 1992, my youngest brother committed suicide. The minute I was told, I immediately went into a state of deep depression. I felt like dying all the time so I started smoking crack. It was the thing that took my mind off of dying. During that time I found out that my daughter wasn't mind. Then my older brother in California died.  One of my two best friends came over and spent the night. We had pizza and beer. He calls me a day later and says his arm went numb and that he was in the hospital. He called a few times saying don't bother coming to the hospital because he'll be home the next day. A day after that his wife called me and told me Jeff had died. This made me way more  depressed. Later that year I found out that my other best friend had been murdered. On top of this, I used to watch a particular female newscaster. She reminded of a friend's cousin. I didn't see her for awhile. Then it was announced that she had cancer and would be back after her treatment. Next thing I know they are announcing that she died. I was depressed but I thought that I was still grieving. This went on for sixteen years. I finally got some help at the VA hospital but my life had changed for good. Every one who I had loved was dead and everyone who loved me was dead. I went from being a extrovert to being an introvert. I was afraid that if I cared about you, you would die. I had a few so called fair weather friends during that time but it wasn't the same. Forward to 2019. The pandemic hit. My father died in 2010. He was living in assisted living. They found him dead in his apartment. I  live alone and was scared that if I got the shots I would go home a die alone. I just got my shots two or three weeks ago. I have been literally alone with no one to talk to for two years and I have chronic insomnia from working at Amazon. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I have been holding all of this in since 1991.

Mental Health

Hey Story teller.. I know you have been banned from the platform. But I'd you have comeback plz reply. We'll be waiting 😣🥺

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