Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

It’s been 3 months since I have been home, doing nothing. As a recently graduated person, life is tough, especially without people for you to go out with or at least just talk to. I remember 3 years ago I came back home after my first day in college and cried. Cried to them; “I can’t go there” “I feel alienated” “This is not where I should be”. It was difficult as all my friends went to cities for their studies and I, was stuck in this small town alone. By the time I was in my final year of college, I was devastated. Couldn’t talk to anyone, ruined a lot of relationships which I have been maintaining since childhood, zero self confidence left and obviously nobody wants to stay with a depressed person. My parents, who saw me go through all these, regretted their decision(at least I thought so), told me “just complete this degree, you can go anywhere you want, do anything you want”, gave me a little hope. I thought I have a chance to get back, but no. Mom said this today; “you’re a flawed person, you have no friends because of that and you don’t know how to be a daughter, you are mentally deranged and you look like shit, nobody’s going to marry you and you’re going to fail in your life, you won’t reach anywhere”. Nobody may probably read this, but I don’t have anyone to talk to.