It’s been 3 months since I have been home, doing nothing. As a recently graduated person, life is tough, especially without people for you to go out with or at least just talk to. I remember 3 years ago I came back home after my first day in college and cried. Cried to them; “I can’t go there” “I feel alienated” “This is not where I should be”. It was difficult as all my friends went to cities for their studies and I, was stuck in this small town alone. By the time I was in my final year of college, I was devastated. Couldn’t talk to anyone, ruined a lot of relationships which I have been maintaining since childhood, zero self confidence left and obviously nobody wants to stay with a depressed person. My parents, who saw me go through all these, regretted their decision(at least I thought so), told me “just complete this degree, you can go anywhere you want, do anything you want”, gave me a little hope. I thought I have a chance to get back, but no. Mom said this today; “you’re a flawed person, you have no friends because of that and you don’t know how to be a daughter, you are mentally deranged and you look like shit, nobody’s going to marry you and you’re going to fail in your life, you won’t reach anywhere”. Nobody may probably read this, but I don’t have anyone to talk to.
kb_calm @kb_calm
Parents who love you should never says things like that, that is very toxic relationship, find a job or scholarship and get out of there, once you make a new beginning it will automatically bring new people into your life, and will raise your confidence too, so first work towards being independent…
Thank you for hearing me out. How am I supposed to get out? I have never been out of here alone. I don’t know what to do
DK Dinesh @dinesh66
Get out and explore the world my friend
But remember there is a lot of people will exploit in the name of friendship
Get a job be more optimistic in life
How am I supposed to do that when I’m trapped in here with them?
DK Dinesh @dinesh66
You can apply for a Job or internship
Go for a vacation or plan higher studies