Its been 24 days…no contact…
Idk how to move on… 
I miss him…everytime every second.. what should i do…..??? 
I am freaking frustrated 

3am Thoughts

It’s so easy for everyone to say “ move on “. That person broke me. I am not okay. 

Breakup

Anyone I just want to talk

Hope


Having an opinion and sharing the same with a person is different from holding on to an opinion and putting it on a person. 

The only difference lies is that the earlier one is a part of communication, sharing, open-ended, open to give-take advice. While the later one is not a part of communication and is closed-ended, it is the final decision from one’s end as to what they believe and it’s true for them. There’s no scope for challenge. 

Ex- I think we can do this way. 
Vs
Ex- This is the only way to do / This is what it is / It should be done this way / I said it. 

Conflict

Feeling at ease
But something deep down keeps tumbling.
Did my repugnant feelings just go away
Or have I suppressed them 
Covering them up by distracting those feelings
Like smothering a face to cease its breathing? 
But you do that for you think breathing be least essential.

But at the end of the day
Your confused
Of the vanishing part of it.
And question yourself
For switching from "I" to "you" in the same phrase
Although both referred to you. 
Me.
What am I avoiding?

Relief is
Now I am at ease since they've left me.

Depression

I love him so much it hurts. We have a long distance friendship, so I can’t even get jealous whenever I see him with a girl.. I overthink everything and I hurt myself by telling me he loves me. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t.. because.. let’s face it.. I’m everyone’s last choice. 

I just hate the fact I love him so much. I dream about this non existent life we could have together, about our love story that’ll probably never come true. 

So why do I keep loving him.. why do I do this to myself. I know he says he loves me but with everything I see or hear, they all tell me that he doesn’t. 

I don’t know anymore. Maybe.. just maybe I should just end our friendship now so that I don’t get hurt anymore?

But I don’t want to do that. He makes me feel safe yk, he makes me feel loved. Or that’s just what I tell myself. Gosh I don’t fking know. 

One Sided Love

My bf started to ignore me from weeks ago and its really painful for me... Today i found out that he might be having affair with a girl and thats why he started to ignore me. Its really hard for me to deal with it. Can someone recommend me what should i do to let this feelings go? 

There are so many things to unpack. Currently I'm feeling pressured into believing the cult like behaviour of my mother who is suffering from mental illness and its getting harder to not give into her delusional thoughts. It feels I'm trapped with no way out.

i am not feeling good today....
i dont know..... there something which is crushing me
this feeling of emptiness is so frustrating ....i used be very active person..i had a spark..but since few years i am becoming lazy day by day...i want to do various things..but this fear of failure always stops me... i have achieved nothing.... i dont know what to do!!! please help!! 

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