It's always better to know your place in everyone's life. especially in ur closed one's life..Nobody can break you but ur own expections from people can...

#LessonLearnt 

Can't agree more! Having no expectations from anyone is key to happiness 

karuna 006

3am Thoughts

This sounds really stupid but is it normal to suddenly hate your best friend for years?

I'm starting to hate her more and more each day because since elementary school grade 5, I liked a guy, he was talking to me and she actually went in-between us and started talking to me about something else. That's where I started hated her until now (grade 9 or what you would call secondary 3). I think she's kind of too overprotective, she would always break the conversations I have with other classmates and she keeps on following me everywhere I go and it's literally very irritating to me. Like, I need space from her but she keeps on following me.
Yesterday was when I started to hate her in my mind. She got almost the same spectacles, tied her hair exactly how I would tie and she wore the exact same mask as me. Istg she knows that someone copying anything about me pisses me off and she still did it anyways.
I hated it whenever someone calls me but it was my best friend, like wtf we look so different
Then today she still wore the same exact things and she 'secretly' follow me everywhere I go to monitor what I do and how I do things and she would do the same things (I saw her cause she was being so obv). I personally think this is getting ridiculous.  I think she's just trying to gain the same amount of attention I normally get and its purely disgusting to me.
The small little gestures and small dances she would do to get attention from people is literally cringey. She would LITERALLY act cute to people and it would trigger my fight or flight mode, and would make me wanna hate her even more.











Friends

Im new to this ...and im searching for good friend ..
What's in your mind...😉

I didn't complete my syllabus now I am having anxiety

Anxiety

devastated

Crush

I broke up with my boyfriend (it was a long relationship) 

Breakup

tell me how can you be  happy after rejected 200 times in a day how can you be still motivated when all hope are getting died at the moment and still you have to face this in regularly 

i feel sick 😫

where I'm going to find my rainbow
#rainbow after rain's🌈

Hey ! 
Not feeling bad....grateful for that but still feeling a bit depressed seeing all the competition around. I am a student right now trying to pursue a goal but others are so much better than me at things and already have so many achievements that it makes me so demotivated and convinces me that I should give up coz going any further wont help. I dont know y but I am just not able to get the results to things. I am so lonely in this professional journey of mine. I have none who could understand my needs right now and help me and guide me for it. Its just me and my laptop all the time in one corner of the room. I am really afraid to fail again. Day by day JUST ONE THING IS REASSERTING ITSELF THAT YOU JUST ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE NO SPECIAL, YOU ARE NO BEST AS YOU USED TO THINK AND THAT YOU ARE GOOD FOR NOTHING....YOU ARE JUST MEDIOCRE.....CAN NEVER DO OR BE THE BESTTT !!!! It hurts my ego. It is making me sad to realize that I am actually no best 😔....as I used to think that I am hardworking, good in studies....nothing nothing at all....real competition is realized when we start competing with the world and not just some ppl. Actually I always had the best in terms of schooling and crowd around me but just couldn't make into some top colleges of my country. And that one failure is seeming to decide everything from then on....that I wont be now able to cope up with that one failure. I feel so sad that despite a lot of hard work....am not able to produce results while others like me are achieving what I aimed for myself. That sucks to see. Why am I so desperate to get the best job!!! I dont wanna have any competition.  I get scared if I see someone from same course as mine achieving things. That makes me realize how I am working hard but not may be in the right direction. And the thing is that I know the right direction but am just not able to do anything about it. Just dont know the reason to this that WHY THE HELL I MYSELF AM NOT DOING THE RQD STUFF TO BRING THE RESULT. May be Im just too done being alone just with my laptop. May be I need an equivalent companion that we may both together prepare for the stuff...motivate each other and get the results.😞 Or may be the reason why I dont wanna try is to avoid hurting my ego again and lower my self esteem even more after one more failure. NEED HELP TO OVERCOME THIS 😔😔

Self Esteem

I just don't feel good. I had the dream of committing sui cide so many times last year. And this year, everything was going well until today. I just woke up from afternoon nap crying because I saw myself doing the same again. My head is aching a lot. I have to study. I have a very important exam in less than two months. Everything was going well but suddenly out of no where, I had this dream. I don't feel lonely like last year, my studies are going well too. 

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