It’s 4:53 am here and I’m wide awake. I didn’t even took any nap yesterday afternoon. And this never happened. I never stayed awake till this time.
I’m feeling so frustrated. LIKE I FUCKING CAN’T TAKE THIS. I’M BROKEN, DEVASTATED AND DELUSIONAL. I’M DONE WITH THINGS. I WANT SOMEONE TO FUCKING UNDERSTAND ME.
WHY DON’T NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME? WHY THERE ISN’T THAT GUARDIAN ANGEL FOR ME? I’M FUCKING DONE WITH HOW THINGS ARE GOING. I FEEL LIKE I’M JAILED. I FEEL TRAPPED. I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE TIED ME TIGHT. IT’S ANNOYING. IT’S ANNOYING HOW MY PARENTS SEE OTHERS PROBLEM AND DISTRESS BUT NOT MINE.
I WANT TO SCREAAAMMMMMM
LIKE REALLY SCREAM. IT IS EATING ME UP. AND I WANT TO TALK MY HEART OUT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE AND CRY MY HEART OUT TOO, LIKE IN PERSON. BUT THERE’S NO SUCH ONE. TYPING OUT THINGS ISN’T REALLY OF ANY HELP ANYMORE. I WANT TO SPEAK. I WANT TO BE VULNERABLE IN FRONT OF SOMEONE. I WANT SOMEONE TO SEE ME BEING ALL WEAK AND HEAR ME OUT .
It’s worst when we can’t our fucking brains and just keep staring at the wall with deep thoughts all alone
