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Can anybody tell me when will this covid end?  Or idk predict or say something about it.


COVID-19

How to pass an exam without studying 😅

3am Thoughts

Can I talk to someone please

Boyfriend

Is it okay to just think about yourself,or we always have to consider our parents dream first.
Is it fair to do what you want.
I got stuck in these things, wanna move out from family, want to make some money, want to discover myself, want to travel.
But i don't know how and when it all gonna happen, still i believe it will come true"EK DIN".
Within a year my college will be completed and i still have no idea what to do next, and im so afraid about my job and career,oh god please save me!

Dreams

OKAY OKAY BREATHE GOSH I CAN'T EVEN BREATHE PROPERLY
I’m freaking out. 
Here goes nothing-
So… for the past one-two weeks "K" told me that she wanted to tell me something but she was holding it in for a long time and couldn’t bring herself to tell me
So then she told me she’d tell me what it is on Monday the day before she's going to travel
And like me I patiently waited…. And then the day came- so I went down knowing she was going to tell me something
But I guess she was too shy to cause she was trying to avoid telling me but my great friend "N" helped me out and walked with "R" so that we could sit alone and talk
We sat at a bench and she said “so this is awkward” and lemme tell ya THAT WAS THE MOST AWKWARD SITUATION I HAD EVER BEEN IN, PERIOD.
I was so nervous I kept on scratching the back of my leg with my left foot- and then she said “ You know how you told me… you liked me…-”
And I replied “Y-yeah-” then she continued “So.. how did you know you liked me…” “I just knew” she said “Like.. Did you ever get jealous seeing me with other people…-?” and I said “Y-yeah..-” then GET THIS SHE SAID “ I’m jealous too-” I- I FROZE I LITERALLY FROZE
I COULD NOT LOOK HER IN THE EYE AT ALL LET ALONE HER FACE (not like I was able to before-) after that I just kept stuttering- THERE WAS SO MUCH AWKWARD SILENCE I CAN’T EVEN-
IDK WHAT I WAS DOING BLUSHING, LAUGHING OR SNORTING I WAS JUST TRYING TO HOLD IT IN
Then I said “L-let’s just go back to 'N' and 'R' ” and she said “yeah- just pretend like this didn’t happen and don’t tell 'N' about this please” I said “okay”
I- IDFOHGOUWHGOWHEGOUEW
AHHHHHHHHHHH I CAN’T EVEN PROCESS THIS IN MY BRAIN- HELP ME-
Then she texted me an explanation because she had more to say here it is:
“Ever since you told me that you liked me- I tried to stay away from you cause I thought that… you’ll stop liking me if I’m away…. I know that’s silly… But…. It has worked before...
When I tried to stay away and avoid you in every possible way… I just couldn’t… I realized it’s hard to live with you ; - ;

When I was avoiding… I saw you became closer to 'S' and 'N'… and I felt really really jealous ; - ;.... I literally wanted to stab those people….

Now.. now there’s still a question that is are you my friend or something else?...
I thought that I should’ve said this before it was too late

And now I don’t even think you’ll call me after this…. It’s fine…. I understand... just stay happy…”

Honestly idek what to say-
I said “I will call you and I’m sorry you had to keep this all inside”
“I’m not going to not be your friend because you like me”

LIKE OF COURSE I LOVE IT THAT SHE LIKES ME BACK
I just don’t understand…. Why she thinks I wouldn’t talk to her…. Like I remember the other day she was crying her eyes out and I think it was because of this…

I do wanna be more than friends…. But I just don’t know how to tell her that…. 
Now… I regret all the times I was talking to 'N' or 'S' because I don’t want to hurt her…. It makes me feel horrible….
I think I’m going to try to find a way to ask her out- or sumn but we’re like REALLY AWKWARD when I say “REALLY” I mean “REALLY” 

There’s just so many thoughts in my head and I can’t tell anyone cause she told me not to tell anybody else…. Which I can respect but still…. I have so many thoughts going through my head….

I don't know why... but I'm freaking out... like I'm not blushing or happy I'm literally FREAKING OUT

I don't know what to do... I think the reason I'm feeling whatever I'm feeling is because I hurt her... and I didn't want to... Can someone please give me some advice on what to do ; - ;

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