Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
It took me a long time to accept the fact that life didn’t like me. I was never supposed to be here. I was born 12 weeks premature, almost killed me and my mother…so why did I survive?
Why SHOULD I survive? I’ve tried so many times to cut my life short, and failed each time.
So, what in my life is so important that my life won’t end? Why am I here? What is my purpose? Well, I won’t live long enough to figure it out. I will kill myself, maybe not today, maybe not next year, but I will do it. Someday, I will end my life, and all this suffering will end…How I long for that day.
If you kill yourself, the suffering won’t end. You ll be stuck in between. How can we take a step towards the unknown? Cmon life is hard, but circumstances will change. If i ll tell you my story, you ll think i am having a hard life as well. But bro hang in there. Life is unfair to some, but killing yourself will put you in a place which will be out of your control.
You are a fighter, thats why you fought while being born. You tried to take your life, but wasn’t successful. Get the hint!
What does it do though? All that killing yourself does is promotes it to other people.
From a logical standpoint, death comes when it does, and doing it to yourself hurts everyone, and doesn’t end any pain.
You think your mother won’t grieve? Anyone who may love you? Your pets, if any, will wonder where you went, people will miss the pretty face they saw on the bus, or in the classroom.
This isn’t a generic inspirational speech.
It’s a logical speech.
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
That’s the thing…why would people miss me? I did nothing to deserve their love or care. All I did was be in the way. I have nothing to give to this world, and the world has nothing to give me. C’est la vie… 'Tis life.
Deserve has nothing to do with it, people are going to miss you no matter what. Look at this post, if you died and people saw you never posted again, they would feel guilty beyond belief, and people on this site don’t usually think highly of themselves anyway, they might end their own lives.
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
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Live, okay? and live as freely as you can! Take what life gives you and make it something gorgeous. You can do it, statistically, you can do it.
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
Life gives me nothing. I’m sorry…
That, in and of itself, is wrong. Life is a metaphor, it’s circumstance, and you are in the position where you can go to school, get a job, and tell people on here about your problems
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
Stop…just leave me be…please…
The problem with that is that you clearly need help, and I’m here to give it to you.
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
I don’t need or want your help…I’ve said it multiple times. I just want to be left alone…
Cole Smith @coleisneat
Well, I won’t leave you alone, Jalana. ^^
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
I asked you multiple times…and yes. I’ve known that this was you the entire time…leave me alone.
Cole Smith @coleisneat
I’m sure, and no, I absolutely will not leave you alone, you need help, I need to help you, it clicks, like a puzzle, and we can solve each other. I will only leave you alone when I can trust you not to do something drastic.
Jalana Rucker @jalana_17
Well, it’s a little too late for that.
James Johnson @patrick22
Talk to me bby
