It sort of pisses me off that they are celebrating my birthday. Why now?

3am Thoughts

I am kind of sad on my birthday

I Don't know how everyone manages to make my birthday about them. My sister told me "I want to eat noodles from that place"  I was like "hello, did you even care to ask me if I want to do the same?" 
I am.on my period and it hurts like crap. I made a sandwich for her but I got no thanks. God.

So it's my sister's birthday today , she called me crying on the phone , that
" I DON'T WANNA BE HERE IN THIS COLLEGE, IT'S SO SUFFOCATING. I SHOULD BE OUT CELEBRATING , BUT HERE I AM, NOT GOING OUT AND STUCK IN MY HOSTEL ROOM , DUE TO THE STRICT RULES , EVEN THOUGH I TOOK PERMISSION" . Today i realised what freedom means in life 😞

As long as you are alive, 
a gift called 'TODAY' is going to arrive everyday.
Open the gift u receive today and enjoy it!!!


Compassion

I don't wanna live anymore. I wish I don't make it to my 18th birthday. I truly wish.

Depression

I wanna share something that could seem stupid but for me it's not. Next month, on May 18, I'll turn 18. I haven't organised anything yet, I don't wanna celebrate with my relatives for many reasons. I'm also struggling 'cause I have a bad situation at home (found out that my father cheated) and I can't stand anymore lies, fake smiles, holding tears and hearing yelling all day every day. I have no friends except my classmates, recently I also felt like my closest friends in class don't car about me (they saw me crying in class and did nothing to cheer me up, just minding their business). At least I have my boyfriend and my sister (older than me). So I don't know what to do on my birthday, I wanna do something special (at least for having a good memory) but I'm not really able to have fun, smile for all the family stuff I've been through recently. I wanted to share these thoughts, now I feel more relieved. Thank you for reading and for any answer or advice, they would be really helpful.

Family

Pov : your crush texted you on your birthday 🎂 

yesterday was my birthday andddd my besties doesnt wish me xD until today...i send them mad stickers and they seen :0 idk if they forgot or what..im pretty sure that they saw my friend status talk about my bday ?? btw we doesnt having a fight before and idk whats going on lmao..thats all what im feeling rn :( sorry for the bad grammar <3

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