It feels weird to think about how close you were with that person and just wanted their time reminiscing those past moments makes it tough for one to move on. Everything happens for a reason , but it is not very easy to cope up with those feelings for a long period of time .

Thank you for being so positive about it , we should definitely connect 

Everything happens for a reason. It will take time to move on. But once you do, you will have a clarity of things. Some things are not meant to be coz you have better things coming on your way. You need to make space for better things and better people to come your way in order for that you have to let go of things that’s not worth rooting for. 
You will be fine 🩵

Overthinking

Singing myself happy birthday while my girlfriend is out partying with strangers. 

3am Thoughts

I'm married since 4yrs but never has it happened that i dont feel lonely! Even though exoressing towards husband that i sometimes need him but he doesn't seem interested in me.... Can't tell anyone about my situation not even my family... Sometimes I get stressed alott n feel like having a divorce! 

Lonely

I wish I could kill myself

Suicidal Ideation

I know our parents did alot for us and we also should give back to them, but is all that matters is only money? My dad expects my brother to give him money every month, I understand where we hail from and I know my bro should also give something ( he does that few times) but you know my bro is also struggling with his family in another country, he is the only one who is having a job, his wife was pregnant and now they have a baby..he is also kind of in a tight situation financially, being an immigrant..he explained to my dad everything but my dad is upset that my bro sends him money only few times a year. I dont know whose side shall I take, my dad did put so much money for our studies and all the stuff I agree...me and my bro were always away from our parents since childhood, my bro didn't get much love from my dad, my father thinks that giving education, money, clothes,food is all a child needs..he never calls him asking if he is alright, if he ate, he never talks with love. Every time he calls my bro he talks about money related stuff or material stuff and my brother hates it sometimes thinking that our dad only wants to show off in the world. My father keeps on ranting saying he did so much for us, I agree he did and we will give him back whatever he did for us...but we are still struggling to settle in this world, we cant just become a millionaire in a day right...my father thinks that we are living in dollar world so that means we are rich..I can understand both my father and brothers view but I dont know what to do. I swore to him today that I dont wanna get blamed like this in the future so I will marry only after I pay him the money he spent on my foreign education...because I dont want him to tell me tomorrow that I did so much for you and you didn't even send me any money. 

Family

It s really hard to withstand the pressure of expectations 

Now and me is a platform where we share our intimate thoughts and feelings with peers having same passion. And I think this is the thing about now and me , that we share the feelings with strangers but who understands us.

Mental Wellbeing

Hi,
It is a raining day here today and I enjoy raining days. 
I am looking at the burning incense that my sister gave to me as a gift and also there is the censer that I brought from Spain to remind me the beautiful time I’ve passed in that gorgeous city.
I’ve been there twice. The first time that I was there I wasn’t the same person that I was recently at the second time. That sounds obvious but still those changes impress me. The way I see things changed so much that I cannot connect myself in this moment to who I was before. The abyss is so deep that makes me feel lost. I think I can see things clear now, because I am more into myself, accepting who I am. I am following my truth and being sincere to myself. I believe I was scared by this all. I am afraid to be rejected by who I love. But we all are different and I have to accept it as I accept who I love as they are. I will not deny that it is hard to be the way that feels good to me because of this fear of mine to be rejected. But as times go by I feel my deep desires more intense, they don’t go away. I am facing it step by step, walking on eggshells, and feelings a bit relieved in this chaos in my mind for facing it. The funny thing is that all the stress I am feeling is caused by this fear of mine. Will this fear go away one day? Because if I still feel that, it means that I can do the same mistakes again, I mean hiding myself. What should I do to stop this fear of rejection?
I started recently to be honest to myself and I am trying to stop hiding me from the world even though there is nothing extraordinary, it is just hard to me.
It is my first time writing my feelings online, maybe it helps. 
Hope you all have a good day.
Bye. 

Self Love

i feel alone, truly, really alone. i need a hug, those long ones which you can’t seem to break apart from 

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